DashOfRainbow

2012-01-09T23:22:00.000-08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME!!

okay i am officially 21 and i feel seriously old. i want to be forever young so actually i stopped liking birthdays since i was 17?! haha but this one is special, it's a first time i threw and hosted a party myself. :) it was kinda tough cos there are many things to consider, from the food to the guest list to the cost etc etc. but i am a lucky and blessed girl with so many people lending helping hands so everything went well! :)

just want to thank everyone who took the time to come down. also, thanks for all the birthday messages and presents. appreciated!

give me some time to do up my birthday post okay? till then!

2012-01-01T08:58:00.001-08:00

I AM SOOO OUT OF TOUCH WITH BLOGGING!!

hahaha okay i totally forgot how to type a proper post but heck, it shall be disjointed and nonsensical and incoherent and whatever else. not like my posts ever made much sense anyway! :)

considered starting a brand new blog because well, it's a new year so this shall be a new beginning right?! but i figured i'll miss this current blog too much so decided to give up on the idea in the end. all my past ramblings shall be stored in the archives for me to read through someday and reminisce on, especially on days when i feel particularly nostalgic. and trust me, such days become increasingly frequent as i age. :P therefore, i shall continue to fill this small space with my big adventures and experiences and some more stupid rubbish.

I know I have been completely neglecting this space but I shall not do that (as much) anymore in 2012! :)

first and foremost, I would like to say...

LIKE OMFGWTHBBQ IT'S ALREADY 2012! TIMEISPASSINGLIKEJAYJAYTHEJETPLANEJUSTTENTIMESFASTER! omg omg omg like seriously, omg! hahahaha but HAPPY NEW YEAR GUYS!

am going to bid farewell to 2011 and usher in the new year. so happy + excited! :) only thing I don't like about it is the reminder that i am growing older reaaally fast but my excitement is much more than the fear of aging so all's good!

2011 had been a good year for me. (a friend told me that i always say at the end of each year that it has been a good year because i'm so happy-go-lucky that nothing's considered too bad for me) hahaha i take that as a compliment and yes, i can be pretty optimistic but overall no, even if i wasn't optimistic i'll still say it has been a good year for me. why so?

1) i graduated from SP and went onto the next phrase of my life.

2) continued having friends as awesome as them:
(athough often we don't meet as often as i would have liked due to everyone's busy schedule but im truly thankful i have them)

okay i seriously have no idea why my face always looks so round in pictures hahahahahaha okay not that it's not round in real life. =.= #mylifeistragic

3) got to know new people + became close friends with some

4) entered the blackberry family. enjoyed my job as a promoter so far, made many cool promoters, met all sorts of customers and took part in various events etc. never regretted joining and hope we'll have more deployments soon so all of us in the company can continue with this job. :)

so this year has been pretty eventful for me. it has also been an extremely busy year for me. sometimes it gets exhausting trying to strike a balance between work, school, friends and time for myself but i will do better in the new year!

(sorry this post is getting seriously long hahaha)

so moving on, here is a list of my new year resolutions!

1) STUDY HARD AND STRIVE TO DO WELL FOR SCHOOL

2) drink less bubble tea
- haha yes you didn't see wrongly! right now i drink about five cups per week on average and i think it'll kill me sooner or later. sometimes when i have roadshows or work i drink up to two cups a day. yup so i am resolving to cut down! it's for my health also laaa haha i want to live till a ripe old age!

3) eggs are healthy but do not attempt to spam
-this is not a stupid resolution okay! i think it's a pretty good one! i mean, eggs are healthy, high in protein and iron and everything BUT it is also high in cholesterol right?! right now i really think i eat too many eggs but you cannot blame me! they are so freaking yummy + goes well with any dish + cheap. what is maggie without an egg? what is steamboat without eggs? what is macdonalds breakfast, or in fact any breakfast, without eggs? what is prata without eggs? HUH YOU TELL ME!??! hahaha but still, i shall keep to maximum two per day.

4) keep my desk tidy and organise my notes for school
-i shudder to think of how my desk can look like. -starts thinking about mountains of trash sliding everywhere-

5) set aside a certain amount each month to save

6) read more books
-been so busy with life that i stopped frequenting the library. shall borrow more nice books to read!

7) stop being late

8) be a nicer friend and family member. overall, be a better person.
-try to be more sensitive to people's feelings, spend more time to people i care about, always control my temper and be less selfish. (by less selfish i mean stop loving only myself and always placing my feelings above anyone else's. i tend to do that, like love myself too much. hahahahahaha. no, seriously.)

9) secret

10) secret

my last two resolutions are secret! :) haha alright that's all. i shall stick to them! :)

alright how about my wishes for 2012?!

was not going to add my wishes in until i saw this pretty picture that i just HAD TO use. hahahaha no laaa kidding, i wanted to list my wishes out to begin with and this was just a bonus.

1) WORLD PEACE & HAPPINESS <3
-no, i'm not trying to act noble. it's just that far too many unfortunate events happened around the world this year. for instance, the japan earthquake that everyone should have read about and felt sad over, the debt crisis, all the fights and riots and so on and so forth. so i hope that we can officially bid farewell to all misfortunes, and that 2012 will be a much better year for everyone.

2) ME TO DO WELL FOR SCHOOL
-seriously laa, this is my biggest wish already.

3) TRAVEL
-start saving up to travel. top destination on my list: taiwan.

OKAY THAT'S ALL! I KNOW THIS POST IS GETTING REAAAALLLY LENGTHY!

taking my favourite quote from the movie new year's eve:
It's suspended there to remind us before we pop the champagne and celebrate the New Year, to stop and reflect on the year that has gone by. To remember both our triumphs and our missteps - our promises made, and broken. The times we opened ourselves up to great adventures - or closed ourselves down, for fear of getting hurt. Because that's what New Year's is all about: getting another chance. A chance to forgive, to do better, to do more, to give more, to love more. And stop worrying about 'what if' and start embracing what would be. So when that ball drops at midnight - and it will drop - let's remember to be nice to each other, kind to each other. And not just tonight but all year long.

GOODBYE 2011, you will be missed.
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HELLO 2012, thanks for arriving and giving me a chance to do everything better this time round. let's all embrace a brand new start! (i am very excited) it will be a kickass year because i say so!

2012, BRING IT ON! 放马过来! :D

2011-11-06T02:09:00.000-08:00

okay guys sorry i know i totally abandoned this space.

anyway i now have twitter! i am pretty active there so if you don't mind reading my ramblings about lousy complexion, eyebags, boring lectures etc, do follow me: http://twitter.com/vitingc

so...after disappearing for so long, here's a quick update.

school has been hectic but generally very enjoyable. :) oh yah, unless you wanna talk about the studies part then it's a separate matter altogether. i can spend hours whining on and on about how tough all the subjects are. and man, they really are pretty crazy. and i need to stop forever procrastinating if not i'll die a horrible death during exams.

as for work, it has also been pretty fun, the rest of the promoters are usually a bunch of awesome fun people. they keep me sane throughout the entire day at work.

that's all! (haha honestly a v quick update)

:D shall end off with something i saw just now. i love it and am gonna share.

"I’ve learned that no matter what happens, or how bad it seems today, life does go on, and it will be better tomorrow. I’ve learned that you can tell a lot about a person by the way he/she handles these three things: a rainy day, lost luggage, and tangled Christmas tree lights. I’ve learned that regardless of your relationship with your parents, you’ll miss them when they’re gone from your life. I’ve learned that making a “living” is not the same thing as making a “life.” I’ve learned that life sometimes gives you a second chance. I’ve learned that you shouldn’t go through life with a catcher’s mitt on both hands; you need to be able to throw something back. I’ve learned that whenever I decide something with an open heart, I usually make the right decision. I’ve learned that even when I have pains, I don’t have to be one. I’ve learned that every day you should reach out and touch someone. People love a warm hug, or just a friendly pat on the back. I’ve learned that I still have a lot to learn. I’ve learned that people will forget what you said, people will forget what you did, but people will never forget how you made them feel."
-MAYA ANGELOU

KTHXBYE! till next time!

2011-09-07T03:07:00.000-07:00

have been neglecting this space due to work + school. I no longer have much of a social life! have not been catching up with people I should be catching up with and breaking promises to meet friends. at this rate I am not going to have any friends! haha sorry guys, if you are reading this, don't forget me okay! I am just a call away!

anyway I survived IT show! :D four whole days of standing and talking constantly nearly killed me but I am alive, barely. suffering the after-effects now, my voice is once again gone and I have two fresh zits. oh well, but nevermind la, it had been a fun four days and I think it's good money! happy. :D I think the reason why it was fun was because my working partners yy and jy are super nonsensical so we just talk crap and do stupid things the whole time.

have you guys checked out H&M yet? yesterday the queue was snaking all the way to the back of the building but we still managed to get in. okay I agree that it is over-rated but still, I managed to find a few pretty pieces. :D

today's studying session with ly also turned out to be a HTHT + shopping session. haha but I had fun, enjoyed the company. I think we think alike in some ways and we have similar taste in clothes too. hahahaha cheers to similar frequencies! :D we managed to grab some pretty items at town too. happy! shopping is like, so awesome.

I need to shop more!! but no time!!

24 hours a day is really too short for me! I need twice of that please!

am really behind on my studies as well. I am afraid to think of the consequences if i don't work hard to catch up soon. I will die a horrible death. note to self: allocate time to study econs, revise accounts and read through IBM!

alright, that's all for now! off to bed! :D

2011-08-29T01:08:00.000-07:00

I survived the entire week! yay I am brilliant la, seriously. :D

shall update a little about what happened this week. (this post may not entirely make sense but pardon me. can barely think straight already, much less draft a proper post. like if you ask me what is 1 + 1 my answer will be 4.)

had barely two hours of shut-eye last night but still woke up diligently for work today! heehee so proud of myself. :) throughout the day I felt okay and the fatigue only started to set in towards the evening. then at 8pm, a mentally and physically drained me still managed to meet kk for dinner! haha we went to eat awesome dimsum and had a short but nice chat. thanks for the treat xiongdi!

on friday I went for netball training after lessons. it was fun and I did not regret going down, although I was already mad tired after an entire day of classes. so now I am seriously contemplating whether to officially join netball. I realised that I still love the sport despite not having a chance to play for the past three years. the training kind of rekindled my love for it hahaha. miss those anderson netball days so much!! miss playing with the GIANTS! -suddenly nostalgic-

okay I think I would most likely be joining! but I need to slowly build up my stamina and strength. am very veryyyy unfit now.

anyway I really would love to continue blogging but my brain is no longer functioning. zzz so guess I shall end abruptly here! :) shall blog about the FOC outing we had on saturday once the pictures are up or when I have more energy!

goodnight world! I need to catch some sleep and prepare for the upcoming week which will be super packed with comex + bash + school + cousins gathering + movie + bb event!

2011-08-22T01:22:00.000-07:00

wooohoo! managed to stay home the entire day today doing absolutely nothing. the feeling is awesome! :D haha I had my breakfast, lunch and dinner on the couch because I was too lazy to move. basically, I stayed on the couch perpetually the entire day.

anyway I came back from camp a couple of days ago!

it was pretty fun but mad tiring! I highly doubt I can type a proper post for camp describing the sequence of events and all that because my brain is feeling quite lazy. haha die I swear this laziness thing is getting out of hand, it's ruining my life. I am too lazy to even think for goodness sake! so to save you guys from having to read a bunch of incoherent paragraphs with disjointed thoughts, I shall blog in points.

some of the things that happened:

- all 24 of us in the same group had to share one room + one toilet. haha to me this was probably the most annoying part of this camp for me, having to wait to use the toilet.

- had a blast at sentosa running to different stations completing the various tasks. by the end of the day we got so wet and dirty with the sand and salt water but whatever, all that mattered was we had fun!

- played amazing race around cityhall and town area! the part when we ran from fort canning to ion to wheelock to st regis to botanical gardens was totally mad exciting, though we nearly collapsed into a pile of jelly afterwards. haha we ran so much our limbs became soft, no joke.

- there was a secret pal segment where we got to meet this random guy/girl from another group. mine was this dude called ryan whom I actually knew before this but I did not realise I know. ah long story. all I can say is, the world is so freaking small!! :D

- the food was the entire camp was mostly...bad. hahaha but we were always so hungry by meal time that we would just swallow everything without caring. in any case, after the camp I made up for it by indulging in loads of yummy stuff. missed gong cha, ice cream, chocolates, maggie curry and french fries so much during camp!

- had barely a few hours of shut-eye every night and if you guys know me, I am someone who needs my rest. if not I'll start getting grumpy/spacing out/do stupid things/fall asleep everywhere. yeah, so that was bad.

- met a bunch of awesome people + three crazy but reaaally nice OGLs. I am thankful for that.

alright, I shall end here. school's starting tomorrow! I think I shall catch up on my dramas for I reckon I would have less time to do so once school starts. I shall be a nerd! need to study hard because I heard it's not gonna be easy. the seniors are all scaring me!! sigh, battle half lost even before it started. hahahahaha oh wellsss.

cheers! till next time!

2011-08-16T00:30:00.000-07:00

going off for freshmen orientation camp! will be back on thursday so until then, don't miss me guys! haha I feel too old for camps but oh well, will go and have fun! :D hope my skin would be obedient these few days and my body will stay stronggg! falling sick, especially during camps, totally sucks.

woohoo will be back!! till then!

2011-08-15T02:09:00.000-07:00

just took a flu pill. you know, that yellow and tiny one from watsons, known for its unfailing ability to cause drowsiness. heehee so while waiting for it to take effect,(usually around half an hour or so) I shall blog about some random happenings.

1. finally done with a week's worth of work at the singtel F1 roadshow. I started off energetic and chirpy but as each day passed, I started getting more and more tired + more and more sick. by the end of the week I ended up looking like some ghost. zzz

2. officially fell sick yesterday, right after explaining about the blackberry playbook to this random dude. just started sneezing non-stop out of the blue and it went downhill from there. by the end of the day I was close to dying and I pity all my other workmates especially st, they had to endure my incessant complaints. I kept going like, "I cannot already laaa" and "I am going to die I swear" and "siannn I cannot survive beyond today" etc etc. basically, I was being mad annoying hahaha.

3. "when you lose something, you gain something"
haha this is like, my friend kaixin's motto in life I think! and I find it really true. although being sick sucks like a bubbletea straw, it made me feel super loved! thanks to all the friends who cared, even if it is something small like a simple message. and thanks for the cupcake WJ! :D felt like a queen the whole day at home, I just had to shout and my mum/sis/dad/bro will be at my disposal. whoo and I admit I abused this wahahaha.

4. had an outing with my OG a few days ago! we went for dinner at fish and co glass house and afterwards went to playnation to clown around. it was a pretty good day. :)

5. to a friend: you deserve better so cheer up okay! I'll support you always! and remember that my line is available 24/7!

6. okay I think a few people kind of thought the previous blog post was about them when it actually was not. haha so to prevent further misunderstandings, I want to say that it is really not about you, or you, or you.

haha alright I think the drowsiness it starting to kick in. I cannot seem to concentrate....ahhh where am I....hahahahaha wow this flu pill like no joke man!

goodnight world, I cannot think already. off to bed!

2011-08-07T04:03:00.000-07:00

I know the sensible thing for me to do right now would probably be to shut the computer and go to sleep, since there is work yet again tomorrow. but instead I am here blogging while munching on yummy cookies rach baked for me. thanks girl, love them and I think they are comparable to famous amos's! and that's saying something because I LOVE famous amos. :D their no nuts chocolate chip really completes my life hahahaha. really!!

anyway just now I went slightly overboard shopping at this website called myfashiondiary(I think). haha it was a typical fail-at-sounding-classy blogshop name but I like the clothes and in particular, the guy tees! I ended up buying three because the prints are too pretty to resist, though I am not sure what to do with them yet. most likely give to random guy friends as birthday presents or just wear them myself?! pretty tees make me happy.

oh and I received a call from my OGL this evening so guess I'll be going for the freshmen orientation camp next next week! initially thought that maybe I wouldn't be picked because apparently due to overwhelming response they have to ballot to see who ends up going? haha so I suppose I am lucky! yay hope it turns out fun. :D

<3 <3 alright think I NEED to go and sleep now if not tomorrow I'll DIE. hahahaha cheers!

2011-08-05T02:16:00.000-07:00

okay while waiting for my drama episodes to load, I shall blog! funshion's being such a bitch today. ):

currently loading:

1) 紫禁惊雷 The Life And Times of A Sentinel, ep 2

my steven ma is acting in this show! haha I watch nearly all the shows he acts in, am like a loyal fan. :D haha I like the fact that he is not exactly the drop-dead-gorgeous nor is he the tall-dark-handsome type. instead, I think possesses his own type of charm? the type that somehow draws people to him. and it's not just me because st agrees!

2) 潜行狙击 Lives of Omission, ep 3

laughing gor is backkk! haha and this time there is bosco wong(cute) and fala chen(pretty) so all's good! am only at episode 3 but so far it's really exciting. I shall watch this slowly la, since it's still playing in hongkong and a new episode will only be out every day. hate having to wait for shows! like my zui hou jue ding ai shang ni. sighhhh!

P.S. the spell check is annoying me, it's like highlighting nearly half the words here such as "backkk" and "bosco wong" and "hongkong" etc etc. ahh it's getting on my nerves!

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anyway!

a bunch of ambassadors went down to laselle roadshow today to attempt to get some new transactions but the crowd was pathetic. haha more so since we went pretty late and most of the students have already gone home. ): yeah so it was pretty much a waste of time. but oh well, at least I had fun talking to the other blackberry people and like, discussing a bunch of nonsense. -beams-

also had fun shopping + laughing at how long jamie takes to wash her face + gossiping about random people + trying out the ayam penyet at liang seah street! :D today was a happy day.

oh yah, I actually really wanted to talk about my orientation as well but my shows are already done loading so guess that would have to wait till next time! provided I ever get down to it, which I highly doubt. haha yes this is me displaying lack of faith in myself because I know I am simply too lazyyy. zzzz. wanted to upload the pictures but it takes too much effort so maybe next time!

in any case, orientation was fun! my group was nice and like, we were just...awesome lah! you have to be there to know! heehee. :D :D

oh yah and lastly, topshop spree here:
http://snotkisser.livejournal.com/87257.html#cutid1

should I take part?!? should I should I?! die this time really need to go pluck petals off a daisy or something. yes, no, yes, no.

SIGHHH!

2011-07-31T03:11:00.000-07:00

I tell myself I will get down to cleaning it tomorrow, then tomorrow becomes yet another tomorrow and yet another and another. cycle repeats ten million times.

me = born to be lazy. :D :D :D

oh and I have taken a recent unhealthy addiction to gong cha's earl grey milk tea with herbal jelly thanks to this nokia promoter's recommendation. haha and the most interesting thing is that it seems to have surpassed my intense love for koi. hahahaha but I have a love-hate relationship with milk tea. its existence just means that I can never be healthy. but then again, even without it there is always ice cream or laksa or whatever else. oh wellss, life is short so i believe in indulging.

have been busy since several weeks ago due to work. initially thought that after this week I should be pretty free. but guess that's not the case anymore! I have agreed to replace another promoter for next weekend, work at oub plaza and laselle roadshow.

okay looks like catching up with friends would have to wait again. awwww I have been terribly busy I know, so much so that I hardly get to meet a lot of my friends anymore. haha but we can always bbm or whatsapp or something! (loving my bb phone so far) so here's an apology to friends I have been constantly turning down due to either work or other commitments or simply pure laziness. cos you see, after a busy day sometimes all I want to do is to laze around at home and not move from my lovely couch.

:D alright gotta go sleeeeep!! planning to catch up on my missed episodes of ah di on xin.msn tomorrow on the playbook! (omg st told me that siwen died and ah di ended up in the jail) hahaha hopefully tomorrow the manager would not be around somewhere spying on me. zzz okay goodnight world!

2011-07-24T02:01:00.000-07:00

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basically, I really need to shop!

and believe it or not, I actually typed the entire paragraph above out. not copy and paste. why? I have no idea, must be nothing better to do with my life hahaha.

anyway today marks the end of my work at the sun plaza roadshow. :D it was pretty fun because the other phone brands sent their respective promoters for the weekend so I had a bunch of other crazy fun people to talk to! the M1 people were also genuinely nice to us so all's good! happy, hope next week's deployment at paragon would be as enjoyable. I love work that does not seem like work.

so basically, apart from working nearly every single day and not having much of a life which in turn leads to three new zits threatening to emerge, everything else has been going well for me. :D

hope it has been the same for you guys!

2011-07-21T00:35:00.000-07:00

sometimes I feel like the things I have now are made of whipped cream, of sugar, of things that never last too long. today I may own everything but tomorrow they could all melt into a puddle of nothingness.

sometimes I convince myself that everything is within my control. but sometimes, just sometimes, it hits me that maybe they might not be.

sometimes I just want to not think. shall leave everything till tomorrow.

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anyway! work today consisted of bingo, stupid drawing games, talking, spacing out, walking around the mall aimlessly, monopoly deal, macdonalds and ending work early. it was a pretty okay day! :)

2011-07-19T23:56:00.000-07:00

yesterday I spent three hours attempting to call the school and it was so difficult because the line was constantly engaged. I spent most of the time listening to the voice recording and music while they tried to assure me how much they "appreciated my call" and how they will "attend to me soon". yeah three hours is hardly considered "soon" right. oh wellsss, at least I managed to get through in the end and they gave me my student ID and password. urgently required those to log into the student portal to select my timetable.

after work ended, I rushed home to choose the timetable and guess what!? all the slots that were left were pretty sucky plus I had tons of problems trying to confirm it and everything. in the end it was shitian to the rescue!! hahaha seriously, what will I do without my friends. -thankful-

so here is my timetable:

monday
9.45am-10.45am - econs tutorial
3.30pm-6.30pm - POA

thursday
12.00pm-3.00pm - math

friday
8.30am-11.30am - IBM
3.30pm-6.30pm - econs

the good news would be that I only have school three days a week so the rest of the time I can rest/study/work. the bad news would be the early lessons on monday and friday as well as the extremely long breaks in between. every monday and friday I would have 4 hours of break between the first and last lesson! think I would probably bring along my laptop so at least I wouldn't sit there suck thumb for the entire four hours?! haha oh well, or I could always study I guess....

in any case, let me know if anyone has the same timetable as me! we can hang out together during the long breaks. :)

on another note, today is my second day into work at the sunplaza roadshow. yay two days down and just five more days to go. omg five more!! ahh so many days hahaha but I can do it! at least blackberry has two promoters so it's not that bad. I was alone today though, cos my working mate went for his driving test. killing eleven hours by myself is something worth boasting about I tell you. I felt invincible afterwards man, like I can conquer that eleven hours I can conquer the world. hahahahaha everyone there is pretty nice though, just that the location's very bad. hopefully tomorrow we can sell at least one phone! yes, the egg's not broken till now and yes that's pretty embarrassing.

alright that's all. I am dead beat and my bed is beckoning me. :) goodnight and stay safe everyone!

2011-07-17T01:37:00.000-07:00

am currently buzzing on extreme sugar high after polishing off the entire tub of ben and jerry's chocolate chip cookie dough, white chocolate donut with strawberry jam and portuguese egg tarts my mum grabbed from the sunplaza food fair. feeling very stuffed but contented now.

nothing makes me happy like how food does. <3

anyway after a long day at work, I am off to bed now to prepare for yet another long day of work tomorrow! hope I don't get a hangover from all that sugar!

2011-07-16T04:25:00.000-07:00

after completely ditching this space for close to two weeks, I had this sudden urge to revive it and hence this post. I am also becoming strangely and abnormally picky about my blogskins recently. the previous one just does not seem to satisfy because it was somehow lacking a certain something but please don't ask me what, looking at it just does not make me happy you know? hahaha so I spent a whole hour editing the codes for this and you are now looking at the final result. it is frustrating because I cannot seem to change the size of the banner on top + align the posts more to the centre instead of to the left like how it is currently. anyone has any idea do let me know! I will be eternally grateful. will repay you by helping to scrub your toilet bowl!! yes, I am kidding.

anyway yesterday we went to catch HARRY POTTER AND THE DEATHLY HALLOWS PART II.

it.was.awesome.

hahaha I dun know about the rest but I really like it. oh yah but all three of us agreed that the part that voldemort died was kind of random. anywaysss no more spoilers because I am sure this is a show that pretty much everyone's going to watch so let you guys watch yourselves la. :D

everyone felt a little strange afterwards though. because you know, it finally ended. like officially ended. especially for people around my age I think, because we kind of grew up with harry potter and the characters. from when I was in primary school all the wayyyy till now. so in a way this also marks the end of my childhood.

anyway I want to catch larry crowne too! but no timeeeee. oh wells sux 2 b miii. no time because I packed my schedule for the next couple of weeks with work. especially next week! I will be working at sunplaza roadshow from 10am-9pm daily fml x112178. but hang in there viting! my motivation will be the fat paycheck. :) wooohooo so many things to buy.

speaking of which, I have work at parkway parade(further than south africa) tomorrow at 12pm and I am still awake! rawr somebody kill me.

haha okay going to attempt to sleep with my ever-so-considerate sister blasting music in the room now. wish me luck guys. in any case, I will be back real soon to update about yanping's 21st birthday! :) till then!

2011-07-05T23:42:00.000-07:00

we are supposed to make a wish at exactly 11:11 and it would come true, right? so does that mean that mine would?

2011-06-29T22:51:00.000-07:00

woohooo I am like super addicted to this particular food item right now. make a guess guys! it comes in many shapes and sizes, can be eaten alone or with filling, and can be made either soft or hard. alright alright, I know it is not easy to guess. the answer is bread! hahaha yes, nothing fancy, just bread.

right now I am loving the plain sunshine bread. dun ask me how but I managed to finish one entire loaf in two days. it's just sooo nice with peanut butter or kaya or nutella(omg I love this thing) or canned chilli tuna.

typing this is making me hungry. haha should I go grab macs with sister?! yes no yes no yes no?!?

sigh decisions decisions...life is so complicated!!!

hahahaha I am always like that and my sister will be like, "dun ask me lah! all your difficult decisions are stupid." see! so mean right!! haha but okay I admit it is a teeny bit lame.

fine la, very lame okay! now, should I get macs?!? yes or no or yes or no or yes or no. HAHAHA omg try typing "yes or no" many times! mine kept becoming yeo or nor. try it and let me know whether yours is like mine. maybe we can discover some new brain logic or something!

okay im getting macs. gotta run!! :D till next time!

2011-06-28T23:19:00.000-07:00

after exactly a month, I am finaaaally back! :D actually I have been blogging, just not here. but anyway, I decided to start afresh by changing the template. spent close to an hour on editing the skin and up till now, I am still barely satisfied with it because the fonts are ugly and the top is not aligned. sigh got very frustrated by it and decided to give up. (obviously a quitter hahahahaha) oh well, I am not a html guru or anything or guess this is passable for now!

life was pretty busy and tiring for me, yet I enjoyed almost every moment. spent the month catching up with friends while still neglecting some against my will(really busy), working as a blackberry promoter, working as a facilitator, contemplating my future(going to further my studies), spending time with family, watching movies and dramas on funshion(current addiction) and as usual, listening to music and spending quality time alone.

on another note, just a few more days until july! which also means that we are halfway through 2011, already!! this year is seriously moving too fast and I am pretty sad because it was been such a good one for me so far. haven't had many dull moments as far as I recall and I am afraid that all these will change when this year is over. haha but I think it's just me, everything will be great.

I find myself losing bit by bit of my optimism as I age.

2011-05-28T04:19:00.000-07:00

IT IS OFFICIALLY OVER! I HAVE GRADUATED!

really mixed feelings about this, it's happiness coupled with a tinge of sadness and sprinkled with specks of nostalgia. it was such an awesome three years of my life and I am so grateful to everyone who were part of it. I will miss so so so many things about the three years but as the saying goes - don't cry because it's over, smile because it happened! I am trying to remind myself of that and look forward. there is still so much to embrace in the future!

moving on the next chapter of my life means that from this moment onwards, many things are going to change. much as I look forward to the changes, I must admit that I am scared. not the slightly scared kind of scared but the bloody scared kind of scared. nobody knows what the future holds and this is especially for me, for I am still in the process of sorting everything out.

but no matter how the journey may be, I will do my best to enjoy this ride. I will stay true to myself, follow my heart and stay happy for myself, always. wherever I may end up and whatever changes I may face, my motto in life will always stay the same!

"do what makes me happy and what makes my heart sing."

:) to singapore poly, thank you for the wonderful classmates you have given me and for the lovely memories that I will forever treasure and hold close to my heart.

anyway, here's to the friendships forged, the countless nights we stayed up trying to complete a particular project, the cups of coffees sacrificed to keep us awake while we mug for tests, the silly videos we filmed as extra credit for project presentations, the times we spent outside the printing room frantically trying to put together the final report before the deadline, the monopoly games I won, the monopoly games I lost, the numerous sessions of bridge and daidee, the fun times, the not so fun times and basically everything else that made my three years what it was.

2011-05-19T03:03:00.000-07:00

I just typed a longggg post titled "random happenings" and because blogger is screwed up, everything is lost! oh my gosh oh my gosh oh my gosh x175271, such a waste of my time! whyyyyyy it is not auto saved?! somebody tell me! rawr! -angry-

hahaha but oh well, guess what's lost is lost! in this case, I am simply too lazy to retype everything. even if my brain wants to, my fingers have no strength so I guess they are not going to cooperate. too bad!

anyway, movies I am planning to watch/re-watch asap on funshion/ in the theatre:

1) Pirates of the Caribbean, on stranger tides - my classmates and I are catching this on graduation day, after the ceremony. haha hope the plan goes on as planned because I want to watch this! :)

2) The Tourist

3) The Hangover

4) Arthur - looks nice but I missed it while it was screening. nevermind, funshion to the rescue!

5) The Social Network - yes I have yet to watch this. yes I know im living under a rock. but in any case, I have already loaded it on funshion to watch...soon! (omg I loaded too many shows on funshion, how am I supposed to even finish watching them?! movies la, episodes of my drama, variety shows etc etc)

going to finish watching these five then decide on my next five!

I love funshion so much. and I love the theatre too! being able to snack on cathay's sweet popcorn while enjoying comfy cinema seats is so awesomezzz. :)

oh yah, and I have a recent love-hate relationship with watsons. I love shopping there because there are so many things to see and buy! but it is making me and st both broke! just a few days ago I spent a bomb there, really heartpain but I tell myself the things I buy are classified as 'needs' not 'wants' so I suppose it's justifiable. then today was the watsons close-door members sale which st and I went to and bought random products like the loreal youth code (moisturiser), masks, scrubs etc etc. we tell ourselves that it's an investment. hahaha which is true, I am terrified of not ageing gracefully so I am starting to use anti-aging stuff now. you know, better start early because once the wrinkles appear they are here to stay! and considering how I am always under the sun and often without any UV protection, I am sure I am going to look 50 at 30 omgggg save me!

okay I am going to draw up a plan to follow called "steps to ageing gracefully" and follow it faithfully. will maybe update you guys when the plan is ready!

haha that's all for now! till next time!

2011-05-15T03:11:00.000-07:00

finally here to update! the past week had been crazily busy. met many different friends, watched movies, sang, attend work briefings, went shopping etc etc. haha but very happy everyday. :)

the only thing that ruined my mood is the mega zit on my right cheek. hahaha I especially hate the kind that I can actually see. it is so big that as long as I glance downwards, I can see it from the corner of my eyes. I have been battling it (I know la, I make it sound like cancer or something haha) for several days now! please disappear soon! -crosses fingers-

alright need to crash! if not tomorrow I would be unresponsive again. I have like that the past few days, due to lack to sleep. very often when my friends tell me something I would end up going "huh?" cos I really cannot process my thoughts. either that or my thoughts are just very lag. I also tend to space out alot these days. haha forgive my sleep-deprived brain okay?! :)

oh and my sister finally got my pay from the grandsalads today! haha she is sooo awesome, I made her run there like three times but she did so everytime! yes, with a teeny bit of grumbling but still so niceee. sigh, the things she does for me sometimes! glad to have her, seriously.

okay gonna crash NOW! goodnight!

2011-05-06T06:34:00.000-07:00

it is strangely addictive to torture myself by putting salt on my giant ulcer. have been doing that since a couple of hours ago. put salt-scream in pain-get high over the intense pain-experience happiness over the pain-wash off. cycle repeats x2917 times. :D

maybe this is why people slash their wrists? to experience this pain which is like, so fun! hahahahahaha. okay I am abnormal. and no, I am TOTALLY kidding about being able to understand why people slash their wrists. dun think I can ever understand/support the act because it is just so silly. nothing in the world is so terrible that it cannot to resolved. and inflicting harm on yourself solves NOTHING. on the contrary it just magnifies the problem?! yeah I am all for those love-and-respect-yourself shit man!

by the way, it is voting day in like another less than 30 hours! the fate of singapore for the next five years is going to be sealed by singaporeans! awww how I wish I could vote.

sucks to be 20 years old! (super old but yet not enough to be considered as an adult, neither here nor there)

went to watch numerous videos on the internet regarding the different speeches made by the various parties and went to check up on their manifestos online. haha I think this is the first time I show any significant amount on interest in politics but really, this election is pretty interesting. I think some of the opposition's ideas are pretty good but overall, I am all for the PAP. haha because I respect Lee Kuan Yew and genuinely like Khaw Boon Wan + George Yeo. yes I even "liked" them on facebook. :)

why Khaw Boon Wan? well because he has been the MP for sembawang GRC since forever? and I think he has done a pretty decent job so far. although I always grumble about how ulu sembawang is and all, I enjoy staying here. he has actually visited my house three times in total ever since I shifted here around 5 years ago. everytime he visits, he is always nice and smiley plus most importantly, he is not all talk and no action. because my neighbours and my overly enthusiastic parents (it can get quite embarrassing at times) actually gave him suggestions about wanting a bus interchange and an NTUC near my house and both actually happened shortly after. although the bus interchange is so lame they might as well just tear it down, but at least I see an effort made lah. apart from that, he was the only VIP whom cared enough to talk to me during F1 when I met him while working at one of the suites. haha so I think he has no airs and does not act like he is better than the rest just because he is a minister.

so then, why George Yeo? because I think he has been doing fine so far as a foreign minister and I think it would be strange to lose him? if workers party win this election for the aljunied GRC, it means we lose George Yeo as a foreign minister and he would no longer have a place in the parliament. so strange right?! haha I mean, he has been holding the role since as long as I remember so if it suddenly becomes someone else I think I wouldn't like it. call me unflexible lah. but really, I think as a foreign minister for so many years he would have forged some strong relationships with other countries and so all that would make him valuable to our country. I watched all his inteviews etc and think I like him so here I am, basically rooting for him.

as for the opposition, I like Nicole Seah because I find that she speaks well and is intelligent. and she also sounds pretty passionate and mostly sincere in all the speeches. as opposed to Tin Pei Ling, whom I think cannot make it(CMI) as a MP. I wouldn't mind making friends with her because she seems nice in general, but as an MP I feel she lacks some essential qualities. she still has a lot more to learn! in any case, I think the SSP ultimately does not particularly stand a chance against PAP in Marine Parade GRC. so the aljunied GRC is still the more exciting one because I think it is going to be a tough fight there.

oh, and PAP should just stop trying too hard there, because I feel that the more they try to convince singaporeans to vote for them in the aljunied GRC, the more people want to vote for the opposition. it is just like how when the more my mum nags at me for eating ice cream after 12am, the more I feel like not just eating it, but finishing the entire tub. also, I think by trying too hard to convince people, it shows that PAP is losing their confidence and some people also feel "threatened" by them.

overall, I hope that oppposition can win more seats in the parliament so that it is less one-sided. it is always good to have someone question your views so that everyone improves. yup but please not vote George Yeo out, simply because I think he deserves to stay and continue serving singapore as a foreign minister.

I think PAP is not perfect, they have a few questionable policies(like the GRC system which I think should be abolished) and sometimes they say things which makes me go like, "huh?!" but in general, I recognize the fact that they stuck by us through the years of SARS, economic downturn, bird flu and the flooding. (which they claim happens once in 50 years haha. wrong! but they would not have known right!? it would be lame of us to blame them for the floods because it is not like they can control rainfall? at least they took some measures to improve it.)

so stop blaming them for the floods! I am okay with singaporeans complaining about everything else like the rising cost of living, high minister salary...everything! haha EXCEPT this flood thing because I think if PAP could predict the weather, they would not be our gar-ment liaozxzxz, they would be deities.

people, Goh Chok Tong =/= Er Lang Shen. Lee Kuan Yew =/= Yu Huang Da Di. okay?!?

to all my opposition-supporting friends(I happen to have alot), just my two-cents worth so hope you guys dun mind! guess everyone has their own opinions when it comes to politics. :)

well, I cannot vote anyway! =.=

P.S. does anyone know how long it takes for the results to be out after voting day?!

P.S.S. going to load more GE related videos to slowly watch! this is as addictive as putting salt on my ulcer man!

2011-05-05T03:02:00.000-07:00

May(the month) has been treating me well so far! how about you guys?

the past few days had been awesome for me because I managed to catch up with so many different groups of friends and they are all so awesome! :) makes me feel genuinely happy and blessed to have such wonderful people in my life.

on another note, HAPPY BIRTHDAY HANNAH! haha a few of us celebrated her birthday over a simple dinner at Fika and dessert after. then, we decided to do what we always used to love a few years ago and still love now - arcade! speaking of that, I remember how we used to scream ourselves hoarse playing bishi bashi(my favourite arcade game which I am sadly not very good at) and how we used to play the drums together. there will be five of us and we will like, each be "in-charge" of hitting the beats on one bar. for instance, one of us will hit the red, one will hit the green, one will step on the blue etc. haha it was stupid, but we did not care about about the smirks from passersby or their amused expressions. we were too busy having fun to care! yeah, those were the times man!

aww sudden feeling of nostalgia. :)

haha anyway a few days ago I also managed to catch up with gaya and huda. we had brunch over good conversation and then spent the rest of the day roaming around town. oh, we also had the new starbucks drink called strawberry frappe?! I am bad at remembering names but in any case, it was goodddd. haha but I secretly still prefer my green tea frappe. oh wait, I think that is no secret?! the whole world knows my favourite drink is green tea frappe hahaha because I almost always would order that. what can I say? I am a die-hard fan la.

also went singing with JH yesterday! 4 hours of endless singing at party-world which trying not to freeze to death. haha should have known better and brought my jacket! haha but whatever it is, enjoyed the music! singing is so so soooo addictive ahhh!

btw I am lamely still addicted to JJ's chi bang. hahahaha somebody introduce me to another song equally addictive and pull me out of this one! (I think my family, especially sister, is getting annoyed with me constantly playing the song on singing it super loudly)

there are a bunch of other things I would love to blog about but...my show is loaded! haha so I am off to catch it and shall end my post abruptly here. goodnight everyone!

2011-05-01T04:39:00.000-07:00

用你给我的翅膀飞我感觉己够安慰
乌云也不再多我们也不为谁掉眼泪

-JJ (翅膀)

this song has been stuck in my head the entire day. it's a frigging awesome song btw. haha so awesome that I must have replayed it ten million times on my real player today. then I attempted to sleep with the song repeating over and over in my head. the awesomeness of this song has somehow managed to interfere with my ability to sleep. I AM GETTING INSOMNIA THINKING ABOUT THIS SONG OMG WHAT IS WRONG WITH ME!? yes I cannot sleep because I keep running the lyrics through my mind and then singing it and running the lyrics through and mind and singing it again. the cycle repeats x 21727 times. so...finally, after an hour of attempting to fall asleep, I give up. I figured my brain works in such a way that it just needs to tell SOMEBODY how obsessed it is with the song and then it will magically GET OVER IT. yup so here I am, blogging about how much I love this song because there is apparently nobody to tell it to apart from my humble little blog(haha), because obviously apart from me the entire world is fast asleep. okay seriously, I am going to sleep NOW. hopefully my brain is finally satisfied and lets me sleep.

seriously, it is JUST a song,(and a really old one too) why can't I get over it ALREADY?! hahahahahahahahaha

MUST MY BRAIN BE SO ANNOYING!?

2011-04-25T01:52:00.000-07:00

love this guy, he just released his debut album and I like almost every song in this album. haha especially track 2, 4, 6, 7 and 12. go listen to it everyone! :)

TGFM! thank god for music.

2011-04-24T18:58:00.000-07:00

today is stay-home sunday for me! :D and my relatives came over so that we could do some family bonding thingy. you know, adults tend to love initiating such gatherings. not that I am complaining though, I enjoy everyone's company. sometimes my siblings and I will discuss whether we would meet up like ten years down the road. by then, I presume we will be married and possibly have kids, though it is impossible to imagine how I will survive all that but yeah, I am not letting myself think that far just yet. if you guys know me, you would know that I am a take-things-as-they-come person so we shall see! for now, I just want to celebrate and live my life. -breaks into a song- hahahahahaha okay crap, ignore me!!

if you guys have not realised by now, this post is completely meaningless and is established entirely for the purpose of personal amusement and to relieve boredom.

hahahahahaha -zi highing mode-

sorry lah guys, I am in an extremely happy mood today for some reason unknown to even myself. I think experts call this....personality disorder?!? hmm dun think so, I just googled and people suffering from personality disorder(the various types) are usually depressed for no reason. haha im the opposite! okay, so there is no such condition published in medical science yet? no term for being happy for no reason. oh well, whatever lah, hope somebody comes up with something soon. :D

anyway just to sidetrack, earlier on all my relatives and I, we were watching teevee happily when suddenly my uncle decides to ask my mum, "what do you dislike your kids doing most?" wahhhh intense question leh, dun play play.

so basically the question led to a discussion about what my mum feels about us and vice versa. woah really freaking intense, cannot stand it. hahaha I am usually on pretty good terms with my mum and we have this mutual understanding on most things. but still, I am not someone to spill my guts to my parents about everything. there are certain boundaries I would not, and know I should not, cross.

but in any case, we ended up having a heart-to-heart adult talk. I think I must thank uncle for asking such a random question which led to the conversation. it was a very open one, and I think we reached an even greater level of understanding after that, which my sister agrees! :D yup so I am grateful for that.

wooohooo! -still zi-highing- hahahaha btw I am like typing this post while running to the toilet every five minutes. having a terrible diarheoa(?!?), no diarrhoa(?!?), NOOO it's diarrhea?!? what the hell I can NEVER spell the word correctly. okay I went to dictionary.com and it's D-I-A-R-R-H-O-E-A. diarrhoea!!! so hard to spell please! :D

hope it gets better soon, I have work tomorrow and cannot afford to run to the toilet every few minutes!

okay got to run! going to watch star awards! so egg-cited! :D

MY ELVIN NG + ZHENG GE PING + JOANNE PEH + VIVIAN LAI YOU GUYS MUST ZHENG QI! :D I supportzzz you guys all the way!

2011-04-21T22:49:00.000-07:00

hello! I am dropping by to let you guys know what I have been up to! :D

since last week I started this new event job with shitian. haha we were at home one random day and decided to search for temporary jobs online, since we spend most of our days slacking around anyway. haha so might as well earn some extra cash for shopping right?! speaking of shopping, I need to shop soon!! have not bought any new piece of clothing for eons! am not even shopping online much anymore. nevermind, soon I shall gather some friends to shop till we dropzzz. hahahaha cannot wait! but for now, I am too busy with this job for much of anything else.

so the job scope is basically helping out at the stadium for some national track events. I have been waking up at 6am for this and thus am usually dead tired by the time the event ends. guess that should also be the case for everyone else? the job is pretty alright though! I like the atmosphere and being able to watch the track events up-close, it's really cool to see the runners sprinting for their livessss haha. :D it is always good that we found other zhi4 tong2 dao4 he2 people who play cards like us. haha so the days are not so boring because no day is boring with mono-deal and bridge. well, at least for me! -grins-

yup so that more or less sums up what I am doing recently. btw sorry friends, if I am kind of MIA now. hahahaha I sleep as early as 8pm so I may not be very readily available even at night, not to mention the day. :D nevermind, if it's urgent call me!

tomorrow is good friday! haha I can wake up slightly later so guess tonight's good for macs supper! yums cheeseburger here I come. :D byeee and till next time!

2011-04-17T03:26:00.000-07:00

on thursday we went to universal studios and it was mad fun! :D I love the battlestar coasters because in general I love rollar coasters haha. the thrill experienced while taking it is awesomeeeezz. although it rained in the afternoon and killed our moods a little, we still managed to make the most out of the trip. love the company too!! :D :D

oh yah but we screamed so much that I am voiceless now. I sound pretty much identical to a frog. -croaks-

my whole body is also aching now. hahaha my life very sad, every part of my body is painful. foot pain, toe pain, voice gone, back ache, leg muscle ache, NO BODY PART IS IN GOOD WORKING CONDITION! FML.

okay enough of complaining. haha going off to watch my videos on youtube so byeee! :D :D

P.S why does my photo turn out so blurry? blogger picture upload is lousy. ):

2011-04-08T02:30:00.000-07:00

watched the first episode of "we are singaporeans" online just now. the contestant called Terence is SUCH A FREAK. hahaha I swear! he seems to know EVERYTHING about singapore, even the little things that I am pretty certain nobody ever bothered about. no kidding, the questions were reaaaaallly difficult and out to kill. mediacorp is just too stingy with their game show money so I presume they made all the questions so hard intentionally. like for instance, which reservoir in singapore can you find Lim Bo Seng's grave. hello?!?! like who on earth knows?! and I am pretty sure we never studied that for history/social studies before. unfair!! another question I remember is the one that asked which airport served as singapore's first civil airport. haha I was like clueless, the only airport I know is changi airport and erm, paya lebar? but I really respect the guy on the show man, he is super smart, managed to win ten thousand bucks! well, guess it's a reminder for me, time to get to know singapore on a deeper level hahahaha.

okay anyway here I am, blogging while waiting for my movie to load.

yesterday my friends and I caught the movie sanctum. the show kind of reminded me of the poseidon, also about a crisis and how the characters use their wit and fighting spirit to get out alive. the crisis in this case came in the form of being trapped in an inaccessible cave system with the characters having to fight strong waters, limited food/warmth/oxygen and rising panic to find a route to escape from.

was not expecting much initially because the reviews online were not exactly good? haha although my friends who watched it recommended it. oh well, guess we are less critical and easier to please? I dun know about you, but I think it's a good show. although at times some of the characters were so annoying and whiny that I found myself wishing that they hurry up and die. since it doesn't take a genius to predict that they would die eventually anyway.

well but in any case this show got me thinking-when it comes to a life or death situation, how many people can actually still be selfless? because it makes sense right, every man for himself? just how many people can safely say that when there is a disaster, say...leaking ship(lousy example but yeah you get the idea) and there is only one life vest, you would give it to your friend?!

haha but whatever it is, may we never face such a tough decision!

throughout the movie st and I were super worked up + noisy. haha so funny! mt was pretending not to know us the entire time. anyway afterwards we had dinz and played cards(as usual) until I nearly missed the last train. (I think) overall:fun day!

I want to watch let the bullets fly next! who wants to watch with me?! :D

whoo and as for today I met up with hannah, like finally! haha we are all busy doing our own stuffs but glad that we had a great day shopping + talking + eating! thai food rocks my sockssss!

hahaha okay a bunch of nonsense later...my movie is finally loaded! off to watch it now! tomorrow st and I are attending a briefing for a new job we both signed up for! must.not.oversleep.or.else!

byeeeeeeeeee! :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D (okay tiring to type so many smiley faces hor!)

:D :D :D :D

:D teehee!

2011-04-06T03:11:00.000-07:00

woohoo finally fixed the bandwidth problem on this blog which I had been too lazy to bother about until just now. I know im hopeless, simply clicking a few buttons also lazy. oh well, at least I got down to it eventually right! :D

have been spending my recent days: sleeping in/breakfast in bed/watching movies online/lazy afternoons at starbucks/overdosing on kaya toasts/making trips to down to amk for bubbletea/maggiecurry-ing/pointless days with friends/work/spending hours on tumblr/indulging in junk food/catching most channel u and 8 drama and being a crazy mediacorp fan/visiting the library/supper with friends on some days and sister on other days/attempting to cook dishes like pasta and curry chicken/getting my body clock screwed up/random conversations/attempting to stretch and touch my toes(have lost the ability to do so! really unflexible now!!)/pampering my hair with homemade hair treatments such as combining milk + vinegar + baking powder to form a paste and messaging it onto my hair/accompanying mum to ikea or to the supermarket so that I could help her carry everything back/etc/etc/etc.

the chunk of words are giving me a headache so that's all for now! catching a movie tomorrow, should be sanctum. hopefully it will be nice! haha super dislike feeling bored in the theatre. -crosses fingers-

goodnight world! :D

2011-03-30T01:33:00.000-07:00

I think it is sad that people do, and will always, judge others superficially. even if we try hard not to, we often find ourselves drawing conclusions based on mere exterior or whatever is on the surface. but if you dun really know KNOW a person, then are you sure what you are judging is the truth?

you are thin and therefore you are anorexic.
you are overweight and therefore you eat too much + you are a sloth.
you wear glasses and therefore you are a nerd.
you score bad results and therefore you are stupid.
you score good results and therefore you lock yourself up and study 24/7.
you are popular and therefore you must be a nice person.
you have no friends and therefore you must be annoying.
you eat expensive food and therefore you must be rich.
you prefer hawker food and therefore you must be poor.

Isn't easy to fall into the sterotyping trap?!

2011-03-23T00:11:00.000-07:00

"每个人都是自己的魔术师"

I believe in magic. I believe there is magic in everything, in the simplest things. and, I believe in miracles. I also believe that you are your own magician and sometimes magic doesn't happen to you naturally. however, you can create your own magic. you can create your own miracle. :D

anyway on a different note, I received my results today. hahaha I can only say that I am proud of myself. when I saw them, I literally hopped out my my chair and jumped around the house. but unfortunately, since I am currently not speaking to my dad, mum and bro (long story which I dun intend to elaborate), I could only share my joy with sister. :D I was like pointing tp the internet screen and asking my sister to take a look. okay to some, it may not be really fantastic a score but I am contented. oh well, whatever it is, it could not do much to salvage my failure cumulative gpa so that is still pretty disappointing. my results during year one and beginning of year two were simply too much of a tragedy, thanks to slacking and other stupid stuffs like going late for tests etc.

but in any case, at least I graduated on a good note! hope all my friends did well too!

tomorrow, I need to do something which has to be done but I am pretty terrified about. but sometimes you simply got to do what you got to do. you know? so not looking forward but I just want to get it over and done with. good luck to myself, I can so do this! :D

2011-03-21T01:21:00.000-07:00

I think it is absolutely annoying when people offer me something simply out of politeness but does not mean it at all. for instance, they will ask me something like "I am heading somewhere near there, need me to give you a ride?!" but inside they are silently chanting please no please no, it'll be so troublesome. of course, this is just an example, but you guys get the idea right?! I just think if you do not sincerely care enough, there is no point in acting like you do. because more often than not, people can actually tell whether it is a genuine offer or not, and it will just complicate things, you know? besides, nobody would wish to seem like a trouble or burden to anyone else.

I also hate it when people make me an option while I make them a priority. so it's like, I will see if anything better comes up and if nothing does, then I will go out with you. please, thank you soooo much for your kindness but you can spare it because honestly, I dun give a hoot for it.

okay so nobody's perfect and neither am I. must admit that I have done the above but I really hate it when people do that, so I shall keep it in mind to always be sincere and not take anybody for granted again. :)

haha just some food for thought.

anyway here is to a really good friend of mine, forget the jerk because he does not deserve you and it's his loss! you are allowed to cry but afterwards remember to smile and forget him, show him that you do not need a loser like him to be happy. besides, you have me! I am always just a call away! who does he think he is anyway?!? -angry- oh yah go listen to fan wei qi's mei na me ai ta, I think you would be able to relate to the lyrics! all the best!

2011-03-17T02:45:00.000-07:00

hey I have not been sharing music on this blog for awhile, to be exact, close to three years. hahahaha yes it has been so long! yup so guys, this is one nice song which I am currently listening to and love. :) it has in fact made its way into my list of top songs! I love to find musical "soulmates" so try listening to it and let me know if you like it, we can like, discuss about songs!

initially planned to blog about my jobs but I am too tired for now, so maybe next time! anyway life has been busy for me, but really fun so it's fine! hope everyone is having fun too, doing whatever you are doing! so...yeahhh I am too tired to stay coherent hahaha so...till next time!

2011-03-10T23:56:00.000-08:00

hello world! shall blog about the past couple of days! :D :D

two days ago kk, mt and I embarked on a island food tour! haha it was actually kk's idea and I thought it sounded cool so we got mt to join us, since we share a common love for foodddd! and in particular, hawker food! don't get me wrong, of course I love exquisite delicacies and restaurant food. but sometimes, nothing beats a hearty bowl of laksa or prawn mee or a plate of carrot cake or chicken rice. actually I cannot decide which is my favourite hawker food, I like everything! but my favourite-estest I would say is, chicken rice?! haha especially when i am hungry, give me a packet of chicken rice and a glass of teh tarik and just like that, I am sold! :)

anyway it was a satisfying day filled with comforting flavours. out of everything I think I like the custard bun, fish soup and xlbs best. we went to geylang, shaw leisure gallery, beach road, chinatown smith street and maxwell food centre.

the first stop was geylang and that stop was quite fail la. hahaha we went there for find cheap and good banana fritters but lamely left geylang with our stomachs empty and feet aching. oh well. but the next few stops were good! actually we planned to visit toa payoh and amk as well but I suggested giving those places a miss because halfway through we were too full. maybe next time!

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as for yesterday, a bunch of us met at cityhall and we went to kbox! :) haha I love singing. favourite place to sing will still be the bathroom at home though, especially during a hot shower. haha I can sing as loud as I want and even if it sounds awful it doesn't matter! afterwards, I even get to draw on the misty bathroom mirror!

then afterwards, we walked from suntec to bugis and had dinner at the foodcourt + ice cream at swensens. I love swensens ice cream! :)

finally, we walked over to timbre to surprise clarence with a birthday cake! haha it was actually minsi's birthday but clarence's was like one day after hers. so coincidental right?! haha if they ever get married they can save on birthday celebrations, all celebrate together! so anyway we sang them a birthday song and they got invited on stage by the live band which led the whole timbre to sing a song for the two of them. haha so I guess it must have been a special birthday for them!

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today I also met the gang for dinner. we had a good long chat and 925 chicken rice ohmygoshilovethatthingfromheadtotoe! :) haha life has been treating me well!

but but but! around yesterday I concluded that I cannot slack forever so I decided to look for a job! asked some my friends and also went online to search for job offers. sent a million resumes and got half a million replies! haha in the end I had such a difficult time trying to sort the different companies out and rejecting those that did not fit my criteria. basically, since I am a slacker at heart, I was not looking for a full-time job but more like events and part-time jobs to earn some extra cash.

so now I have two jobs! one is as a salad bar crew, only 4 hours per day on weekdays. so basically, after work ends at 3.30pm, I get the rest of the day free to do whatever I like! since working location would most likely be at town, I can hang out there afterwards. maybe do some window shopping or chill at some cafe. :) then at night I can still head home for my television dramas. sounds okay right?!

as for the other one, it's only on friday, saturday and sunday evenings for a month. job scope would be promoting mexican beer at 7-11 outlets. so yeap, don't be surprised if one day you walk into 7-11 to grab a juice and there I am, giving out beer related merchandises or whatever!

yikess!! means for the next couple of months I would need to work! no more of being a couch potato! quite sad lah haha but too bad, no work no money!

sighh sux 2 b miii.

HAHAHAHAHAHAHA no lah I am kidding! I dun mind working and actually, I am even a little excited! hope both would turn out fun. :)

that's all for now, will be updating about work soon! cheers!

2011-03-08T03:16:00.000-08:00

I don't have so many, but here are five completely random ones!

1) the fact that macdonalds exists (btw their new burger is really yummy!)
2) the recent good weather
3) good music
4) no matter what, things always turn out alright in the end.
5) breakfast of omelette and juice, eaten in bed.

2011-03-07T02:37:00.000-08:00

home from a family barbecue! I ate so much that sumo wrestlers will be proud of me. especially sausages, I think I ate at least fifteen of those processed sticks?! I think I am destined to stuff myself with sausages that the rest cannot finish, it happens all the time. oh well, at least I like them! :)

okay technically, I came back a couple of hours ago but I was watching a chick flick on funshion. I think this has become very much like a routine for me, I'll watch a chick flick every night. they are really cheesy and predictable, but I guess that's what I love about them, the fact that they are so mindless. haha the one I watched just now was "he's just not that into you" and personally, I found it funny the way the girls in it are always so delusional and finding excuses for men.

no matter how much I eat for dinner/supper or whatever, I would still be hungry at around this time. always! haha I think I am just programmed to be that way. off to cook some maggie!

P.S my third packet in two days. I am so convinced I am going to die from this maggie overdosed. but heck, even if I am going to die, I am going to die happy. and maggie makes me happy so who cares right!!

P.S.S should I cut my fringe or keep it long so that I can tuck the whole bunch behind my ear?! most likely going to trim an inch off later though, dun think I can stand another day of it poking into my eyes and everything. hair is annoying, wish I was bald.

hey I was just kidding about the bald thing, TOUCH WOOD MAN!

:D fooodddd!! bye!!

2011-03-05T04:45:00.000-08:00

what the hell I am so hungry!

how can I be hungry again?!? had yummy zi char for dinner, one entire macdonalds meal for supper and less than an hour ago I had a cupcake which I rummaged from the kitchen. but now I am craving for crepes and cream and strawberries! seriously, my appetite can be pretty alarming. hahahaha die all I do is eat and eat junk food, need to have more fruits starting tomorrow, so that I would hopefully get less sickly. :)

speaking of which, I went for the doctor's checkup today. haha did blood tests and everything, going to take the report next week. dun think there's anything wrong with me la, I have a tendency to be paranoid, especially when it comes to my health. every little thing and I say that I am going to die. haha but mum scheduled the health checkup for me, just in case. keeping my fingers crossed!

2011-03-03T06:37:00.000-08:00

I am finally done with the new skin! whew it took me super long to get it done?! haha because I wanted another one initially but that one was seriously too confusing to edit. the codes and all that gave me a headache but I like it so kept trying and trying to edit until I finally gave up an hour ago. it gave me such a headache man! this one's much much easier! haha guess I am just not much of a computer person. oh well. this one's pretty too! :)

anyway I shall blog about yesterday and today.

yesterday my three years of poly life officially ended with the completion of my final paper. found the paper pretty okay. so far I think the hardest paper is rm because I did not study for some of the questions which came out. but in any case, it's over! here's a big thank you to my studying buddies, in particular st, kk and rach. haha studying with friends always works better for me because studying alone usually means studying at home and studying at home = ultimate fail. every.single.time. hahaha the fault lies in the television and the sofa, they are simply TOO tempting. I know, my self-discipline sucks lah!

okay anyway to celebrate the end of exams, some of us went to johor!

we took a taxi from the customs to this new mall called the KSL-something. were all starving so we got some food there. the shi-lin there is awesome man. haha I like it more than singapore's. the chicken is served differently, instead of cutting it up they give you the whole piece and the main thing is, it's so much juicer than the ones here. plus it is HUGE. :) the tempura also tasted nicer. :) or maybe we were just hungry.

anyway we grew bored of the mall pretty quickly so we decided to head to the pasar malam there. must really thank sisi and her boyfriend, they had to drive us around and due to the large crowd, we even spilt into two groups so the boyfriend had to drive both groups separately.

nothing really interesting to see there, but in my opinion much nicer than singapore's. haha alot of food which I was tempted to get but wanted to save some stomach space for dinner. anyway some of us bought face masks which were really cheap. it's the beauty diary masks which I later googled and found out that we bought the fake ones. there are fake beauty diary masks circulating in the market so be careful people! I also found out how to differentiate between the real ones and fake ones so I wouldn't get cheated anymore. in any case, I used the fake one and nothing happened to me. and being a cheapskate, I think I would finish using the rest I bought too. I mean, what can happen right?! I even evil-ly gave one to my sister wahahaha.

then before leaving the pasar malam, kk bought this smelly tofu for us to try. IT WAS THE MOST HORRIBLE THING I EVER TASTED MAN. only one word to describe, SHIT. it tasted JUST LIKE shit. not that I have tasted shit but sorry, no other description available in my dictionary which can as accurately describe how unbelievably pungent and gross the smelly tofu was. ewww TOTALLY PUKE-INDUCING STUFF!

guys, just never try smelly tofu if you come across it next time okay. promise me, it's for your own good. HAHAHAHA.

then it was finally time for dinner before heading back home. we went to this zi-char place and ordered some dishes to share. the crabs were really puny but tasted really yummy. ahhhh dying for some of it, I am so hungry now! cannot stand it, maybe I should try suggesting to mum to bring us out for crabs soon?

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as for today, a bunch of us went to celebrate weiling's birthday! as usual, when there is a large group, deciding where to eat takes AGES. haha I think we took slightly over an hour walking around aimlessly before settling for pizza hut. then it just HAD TO be too crowded so we settled for kenny rogers. although I doubt many people like it, we were simply too hungry to be picky and also did not want to walk around any more. anyway it's the company that matters, no?

pigged out on chicken and muffins, I thought the latter was really good. haha or perhaps it was just because of my sweet tooth. :) always had a soft spot for desserts, especially ice cream, chocolate-anything and cakes.

then lydia went to buy a small cake for weiling and we sang the birthday song and everything. haha I love to sing the birthday song. since young, whenever it's somebody's birthday, I would sing the birthday song really loudly. haha guess it's not the tune I like but more of the feeling whenever the song is sang?!? it's just always associated with happiness. :)

after the dinner we headed to butterfac. the rest went in but not me because I did not want to drink. recently pretty sickly so i am trying to take care of my health! did I mention, last week I ran a high fever of 38.7 degrees and a splitting headache man! was a super horrible night for me but luckily it got better after popping my trusty panadol and resting. I love panadol like seriously, I dun know what I'll do without it. haha I know I probably shouldn't love panadol though, it's not very good for me. all my friends tell me the stuff stays in your body for 30 years or something?!? oh yah, and you become reliant on it. which I think I am man! die must stop eating it so often.

okay enough about panadols, haha where was I? oh yah my health. (why am I talking to myself?) apart from the recent fever, I also have frequent stomachaches and an incurable sore throat. my voice sounds PERMANENTLY like a man's and can never recover no matter what I do. -horrified-

point is, I am really worried about my recent health. hahaha should go for a health check up soon and find out whether there's anything wrong man! I told my mum about it and she agreed to take me to the doctor's, although she thought I was most likely just being paranoid. haha I think I agree. but in that case how do you explain the mad hair loss!!? oh yah, which brings me to this, I have hair loss too. hahahahaha I know I still have alot of hair although they keep dropping but stillllll, it's scary to comb your fingers through your hair and find strands of it caught between them. and this always happens.

HAHAHAHAHA okay shall not bore you guys over my health problems anymore. back to weiling's birthday! yup so I spent the night at starbucks playing mono-deal instead, which I enjoyed. how eh I very scared next time start work nobody will play card games with me anymore! hahaha okay then again, how often do you see office people in their formal wear sitting at some cafe playing dai-dee or mono-deal?!? never. would have been pretty funny though. :) nevermind, I can play on weekends.

most wanted to catch the last train so I managed to train home with yeeyen and weiling. :) happy belated birthday again, hope it was good.

yup so here goes my really LONG post. (I amaze myself how much nonsense I can write sometimes) I shall go find some food now, before I faint on the couch. oh and good morning, it's time for bed! :) haha love this feeling of being able to stay up without worrying about having to wake up early the next day. most likely going to crash until evening or something!

2011-03-01T02:31:00.000-08:00

:D hello march!

and I am done with my last paper for this year, and in my poly life, and possibly for the rest of my life. need a nice longgggg sleep to recharge. will be back to blog soon!

2011-02-23T05:05:00.000-08:00

NUMBER FOUR FOR NEXT MONDAY AND TUESDAY PLEASE! WITH CHERRIES ON TOP! :D

haha taking a break from writing gbe notes to blog. went to the 2D1N korean buffet with some friends just now and we stuffed ourselves silly with meat. I love meat but we had SO MUCH that I think I would die from protein overdosed. but who knows right, maybe it will lead to muscle growth?! then I can be strong(er) yay! okay im crapping, ahhh studying makes me nonsensical. anyway afterwards we went to eat dessert then went to macs to play cards and have ice cream. basically do nothing but eat and slack. I love it though! haha but there was this tiny voice at the back of my mind telling me that im dead because there is less than 5 days left and I should be studying instead of playing! oh well.

anyway I thought of an eye-dear! :D fa-ta-bu-lous eyedear! haha if I become a teacher next time(if i ever) then I would start every lesson with "class, always remember this, from this room you can go anywhere." you know, like you can get THERE from here. hahahaha it can be my signature phrase. so cool right?!? I know! :D

and I know I ought to be studying tomorrow but im going to kbox?!? then aunt's treating dinner and we are heading to tampines for that so there is no time to study! die die die. okay I shall go finish up that chapter and sleep so that I can wake up earlier tomorrow and write somemore notes! (although I doubt I can cos it's pretty late already) I actually kind of enjoy writing notes but the hardest part has yet to come - the memorising + trying to apply concepts part. KILL ME.

alright end of pointless post + endless rantings and all that. GOODNIGHT!

P.S. I am getting a sore throat again! my voice sounds farnieee! again! whyyyyy!!

KILL ME PLEASE.

OKAY BYE.

2011-02-21T23:54:00.000-08:00

this afternoon I was just telling my friends how I have been craving for timsum and surprise surprise, mum prepared timsum for dinner! :) must be telepathy! haha we had wanton, siewmai, glutinous rice and shui jiao. quite a spread! I helped to make the shui jiao and wanton, really fun to flatten the dough into dumpling skin and wrap the filling with them. hahaha but we made quite a mess. I think dad was annoyed because he was hungry but we ignored him and took our own sweet time. a hungry man is an angry man?

oh yesss! tourism law paper is over! haha I think it was an okay paper, apart from the lack of time. when ronald announced that it was the last 30 mins, I grew desperate because I still had two whole questions undone! oh well, at least I managed to crap whatever I could and as fast as I could. there are blisters on my hand nowww! ): why must we write?! why can't we type?!? haha following the advancement in technology and all that right?

I was so happy about getting one paper over and done with that I felt this incredible and uncontrollable urge to slurge. buy something I like to make myself happy! I tell myself I deserve it.(no, not really but yeah, self denial and all that)anyway so I found this forever 21 spree and ordered quite a number of items! die I am broke now. ahhh sucks to be broke. hahaha but I cannot wait for the items to arrive! I think the spree is still open guys, if anyone wants to get anything let me know okay! we can order together, more people ordering = sharing the shipping fees so everyone pays lesser! :)

from tomorrow onwards I will study for RM and GBE, wish me luck everybody!

2011-02-17T02:09:00.000-08:00

haha valentine's day just passed so happy valentine's day to you, me, everyone! :D

anyway I have been catching quite alot of movies recently including burlesque, I love HK, shaolin, just go with me and it's a great great world. hahaha it's a pretty addictive activity actually, love cuddling up with a jacket and staring at the big screen while stuffing myself with popcorn. speaking of popcorn, I am absolutely in love with cathay's sweet popcorn. :) haha it's so sweet, addictive and just so awesome! you know, if my friend suggests sharing a salted popcorn i'll be so sad! hahaha at most a mix of sweet and salted, if not i'll dieeeee. my friend and I used to joke that we will dump a guy if he eats salted popcorn, number one criteria: must eat sweet popcorn!

anyway enough about popcorns!! moving on!!

next monday is my law paper and up till date i am still pretty unprepared. tried some of the past year papers but am rather clueless about everything lah. nevermind, still have awhile to study so i will work hard. tomorrow i shall write some notes to remember first, then maybe during the weekends can try somemore questions?! and then hope for the best!

alright shall watch my show now so bye! :)

2011-02-09T01:24:00.000-08:00

caught burlesque with a bunch of friends after school today and it was so awesome. hahaha love the show! the music, storyline, witty conversations, the lead's voice and pretty much everything else. although we were taking the first row seats due to high demand, I nonetheless thoroughly enjoyed myself. :)

on a side note, I am officially done with all presentations!! yay extremely happy, finally can flop on my bed every night and slack, although I have always been doing that, but this time it's without the guilt. heehee awesome right, I know. then again, I only have a few days to slack before the studying for exams have to start! I am so dead for gbe because up till now im still pretty clueless about everything.
note to self: must attend friday's gbe tutorial and lecture plus must start studying gbe next week!

anyway have uploaded some pictures of my cny at grandma's. a few only la, too lazy because the blogger upload thing is so slow!

the cute cousin who pees in his pants with my sis and I.

haha see! this is the cai shen ye! *cues cai shen dao wo jia da men kou song*

haha this is prove that we do nothing but laze around everyday.

ending off with a picture of my cousin, he is 9 this year! :)

alright off to watch my show now! must.wake.up.for.rm lecture.tomorrow~!

2011-02-07T01:40:00.000-08:00

hello happy chinese new year people! this is my absolute favourite-estest holiday and I hope this is yours too. :) haha actually totally understandable if it is, you get the most number of days off from work or school, more than any other holiday. plus you get hongbaos, have tons of cny goodies to eat and you have the perfect excuse to gamble. even if you do nothing but lose money you are still very happy just because it is cny and you can be nothing but happy. but in my opinion, the best part of cny is still being able to see all my relatives and catch up, spending quality time with everyone. :)

spent five whole days in my grandma's house in malaysia and it was so awesome. life there is so slack! everyday chill + play + eat + sleep + sleep + eat + watch tv + sleep + did I mention sleep?!

some random happenings:

1) I ate soooo much I think I must have gained at least 5kg in the 5 days. haha so many nice things, I kept stuffing myself with the cookies and chocolates and soft drinks, even though I had a slight flu and sore throat.

2) my flu is much better now, though my voice is still like a man's. sian it can never recover, I swear! whyyyy!?!?

3) a man dressed like CAI SHEN YE randomly walked into my grandma's house uninvited and shouted "huat ehhh" SUPER LOUDLY. HAHAHA it was super funny. then he started giving out sweets and magic 4D numbers befre shouting "huat ehh" again, scaring all of us in the process, and left. one of the numbers he gave was "6868" and it helped my aunt strike 4D. HAHAHAH YAY HUAT EHHH!

4) our neighbour was playing with kong ming deng(chinese lantern?!?) and one flew to the tv cable on our roof. we were worried for awhile because we thought our house would get burnt down.

5) played with fire crackers. we had the traditional red ones that were so freaking loud it made me partially deaf. then we also had this dragon egg thing that you light up and throw onto the ground for it to spin before bursting. aiya basically many many types and all very very fun.

6) I gambled and lost a grand total of one dollar.

7) played monopoly board game with cousins, some games lasting the entire afternoon. so happy to be able to spend an entire day doing nothing and wasting it away. btw I think im pretty good at it! wahahaha.

8) did not wear any new clothes. because we lazed around the house all day so forget it, I was too lazy to dress up or anything. everyday casual. and when I mean casual, I mean really causal. sleeping wear kind of casual. hahahaha.

9) I have a really cute little cousin. he pees in his pants whenever he laughs too hard or is scared. haha but because he is so cute, we like to scoop him up and tickle him or throw him around. therefore I think he pees in his pants 23 times a day on average?!? HAHAHA so cute! then when the bigger cousins use swear words like the f word, he will imitate and go like "fuckinggg!" okay damn cute. :D we are such bad role models though.

10) received less hongbaos this year, never go around visiting! haha but still, not that bad la. yay can go shopping!! :)

11) I have at least 10 new mosquito bites!

12) my uncle hired a lion dance troop to perform at our house. so cool, it just came in and performed for us. haha but the lion took so long to peel a mandarin orange. it just flopped on the table and took it's own sweet time to peel the fruit.

okay that's all for now, my sister took quite a lot of photos, maybe I can upload a few in the next post. show you guys the cai shen ye. :)

and I am so screwed. the pp interview's tomorrow and I have yet to prepare anything! this is not the worst part, the worst is that tomorrow also happens to be our shopping mall's presentation and we have yet to prepare the powerpoint! what the hell how can we still be so calm?!? WE ARE SO DEAD LAAA. presentation tomorrow and ppt not even 2 percent done! planning to rush out everything tomorrow. we are so freaking last-minute!!! FML x162121

I am so sad cny is over. ): okay it is not technically over, considering cny is 15 days in total. but still!!!

nevermind, I still hope that this rabbit year would be an awesome one for me and I will always be happy, everything will go smoothly and I will huat! :)

cheers! 3 hours of sleep till I wake up to reality and head back for presentations + work + exams. am counting down till the next cny!!

2011-01-27T00:11:00.000-08:00

I seldomly swear that I am going to use every ouce of energy I have for the next few days to finish up the RM project. I am no perfectionist, it need not be a flawless one. but, please let it satisfy our favourite(not) lecturer and hopefully it would be a project which makes us proud! :)

2011-01-21T01:45:00.000-08:00

when I was a kid I wanted so many things. I wanted to love but never get hurt. I wanted to always laugh; not the forced kind, but the genuine and hearty ones. I wanted to sing for my family and my friends and strangers and the birds and the bees and you and the world. I wanted to reach out my arms and have butterflies land, because they like me. I wanted to explore the world and see things I could otherwise only read about. I wanted to spend lazy afternoons laying on grass and staring at the sky, which would never be gloomy but always bright and blue and happy. I wanted to always be nice and forgiving and love everybody. I wanted to be a hero and save the day. I wanted to climb mountains. I wanted to sky-dive. I wanted to plunge into the deep blue ocean and scuba-dive. I wanted to eat cupcakes by the sea.

but now that I am old(er), I no longer need all these things. true, I still want them, but I no longer need. more than anything, I just want to be happy and to enjoy life at my own pace. but in this society can I? when the world moves ever so fast can I not!? so many question marks, so many unknowns.

when I was a kid I wanted to be so many things. I wanted to be a policewoman and destroy bad people, like people who murder others just to make themselves feel better. I wanted to be a pastry chef and bake pretty cupcakes and cookies comparable to famous amos's. I wanted to be a teacher for a long time too, but I stopped because my friends told me it is difficult. then, I wanted to be a hotel general manager and then a doctor and then a lawyer and then a photographer and then a psychologist and then suddenly, I wanted to be nothing. but now, after turning many rounds, I am back to wanting to be a teacher. I dun know whether this path would be the right one for me. I dun know whether I will love this job. I dun know how long I can stick with this. heck, I am even clueless whether I am going to BE one eventually. maybe no school would want me? maybe I would change my mind? maybe I want to be a doctor again tomorrow? or a lawyer? or a sales person?

just reminded myself why growing up sucks sometimes.

2011-01-12T22:09:00.000-08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME ME ME!! hahaha actually it's belated, but I have been pretty busy so there was no chance to update until now. anyway this year's celebrations were much simpler than the previous years but I was happy all the same. :D managed to catch up with several groups of friends over dinner and had a family party the day after my exact day. as for the exact day, a few of my friends and I went to universal studios for dinner and to catch the fireworks. whee love fireworks! as I watched them rhythmically exploding and painting the sky, it suddenly felt like there is plenty of hope in life. seeing the sky fill up all sorts of pretty colours and patterns, I honestly believed, at the moment, that I can be anything I want to be and achieve anything I want to achieve. I felt that I can conquer the world, and that beauty is everywhere in this world. it was especially nice for us, since we were super close to the fireworks, and I felt like when I reach out my hands I could catch them and keep them safely in my palms. HAHAHAHA yup seriously! dun you think so too?! :D :D

whatever it is, I wish to thank everyone who wished me and genuinely cared. I really appreciate it! this year I was pleasantly surprised by a few friends, people whom I would not have expected to remember/meet me for a birthday meal/buy me a gift/show that they care. on the contrary, there are some whom I were rather disappointed with, to be truly honest, because they dun seem to bother much at all. oh well. haha nevermind, I wouldn't take it to heart! :D afterall, it's just another birthday! :D personally dun treat it as a super important occasion anyway!

"sometimes we expect more from others because we would be willing to do that much for them" - nostalgicbliss

anyway, much as I hate to admit it, I am now twenty! the big 2! I am freaking old like what the hell the wrinkles are bound to appear soon! haha this year I got a total of around a year's supply of facial masks as presents. and out of which, many anti-aging ones! see, everyone is mocking me ahhh!

isn't it funny how when we were young, everyone wanted to grow up. but now that I am getting increasingly older and finally bidding farewell to my teenage years, I find myself dreading growing up more and more. the future just seems so uncertain and scary! haha but since growing up is inevitable, for now I am just telling myself to face it bravely and to look forward to an awesome one! I will do what makes my heart sing. I will live the life I want. I will love the entire experience. :D :D

got to run for now! going to takeaway macdonalds for supper and then sleepppp! projects will get progressively more hectic in the coming few weeks but good luck everyone, we can survive this man! till next time!

2011-01-02T18:55:00.000-08:00

"no matter how frightened and discouraged I may become about the future, I look forward to it. in spite of everything I see all around me everyday, I have a shaky assurance that everything will turn out fine; and I dun think i'm the only one. Why else would "everything be alright" ease a troubled place in so many of us? We just dun know, we never know, yet we have so much faith. we hold our hands over our hurts and lean forward. it is how we keep on, this kind of hope."

-Elizabeth Berg

love this!

2011-01-02T03:50:00.000-08:00

HELLO 2011,
I AM GOING TO CREATE SOMETHING AWESOME OUT OF YOU.

goodbye 2010, you were good while you lasted. unexciting, but good all the same, so thank you! and 2011 signals a new beginning for me, for all of us, and a chance to reevaluate ourselves as well as rethink the things in our lives, who and what really matters. I am happy for the chance, although whether it is 2010 or 2011 does not really make much of a difference to me. I feel the same you know, nothing special.

I made new year resolutions yet again, whether they are destined to fail or not, I would say it's still too early to tell. haha but I will work at it. am not going to list the resolutions here because this year's feel somehow personal. they can be like my secret mission! :D :D exciting right, I know.

okay here's to a brand new year! and whatever happens, viting you are so going to rock it because you are awesome like that. <3 have a good year everyone!

2010-12-25T15:20:00.000-08:00

MERRY CHRISTMAS EVERYONE!

haha it's finally christmas yet again. the time of the year when everyone would suddenly realise how fast the year has passed, how they have allowed the previous 365to creep by just like that. I have mixed feelings about christmas. I love the presents, pretty christmas lighting and sparkling christmas trees, starbucks christmas drinks which I adore and wish they can have it all-year-round, awesome atmosphere, gatherings, the perfect excuse to gorge my hearts out etc etc. however, amidst all that, I find that there is a tinge of melancholy just beneath the surface. it is during this time that I think about the people I have allowed to drift away from my life, the resolutions forgotten and promises broken from the beginning of the year. also, I know christmas would sneak up on us, and it within a snap of fingers, would be over, together with the entire year. I will miss 2010!!!

but here, I am going to stop being a scrooge and just wish that everyone would enjoy their christmas! :D since it is all about love, sharing and appreciation, I would like to tell all my family and friends(that happen to be reading this) that you guys are awesome. :D no matter who you are, if I have ever offended you by for instance, saying something tactless and stupid, or because of various reasons I have neglected you, I would like to say a sincere sorry! I will try to be a better friend. <3

so far I had two christmas dinners with presents exchange, which turned out surprisingly well. heehee love the gifts! also had a family buffet thingy at aunt's house yesterday, which was cool because I finally got to see everyone! now everyone else is at bugis, planning to have steak, but im at home! what the hell right?! haha I have cramps lah, something I hate about being a girl.

oh well, a day nua-ing like jelly at home can also be a great way to celebrate christmas in my opinion so it's okay!

anyway apart from blogging about christmas I also want to blog about my short trip to malaysia with my family! it was short and packed with activities, but I had fun. every morning, we got woken up superrrr early and wayyyy before meeting time because my mum would call our room every 5 seconds until she was sure we were awake. her reason was that if we head down late there would be a long queue at the breakfast line and there would also be no food left. typical singaporean behaviour which had me pretty annoyed during the trip but makes me smile now.

this trip also allowed me to re-discover my talent for sleeping on buses. hahaha we travelled in a coach throughout the four days and whenever I get on it, I would fall asleep within seconds. after hours and hours on the road I would jerk awake, then just as I thought there is no way I can sleep anymore, I would fall into yet another deep slumber. sigh, I think I am just a hopeless pig.

okay anyway enough of words, they are making me cross-eyed. shall post some pictures! I spent ten million years posting pictures yesterday but everything got screwed up, stupid blogger. if it fails again I dun care anymore man, seriously! it's super difficult to post pictures using blogger upload but photobucket sucks too! grrrr okay trying again now! using blogger now, give up on technology!

day one:

we went to KL, visited a few tourist attractions. then went shopping at night! did not buy much though, because my mum was too busy shopping for her own stuff to care about me. ): haha need to head to bangkok for some shopping soon, as soon as im less broke!

this is the first hotel we stayed in at KL and it sucked. hated it and am never going back. the subsequent hotels were 187235 times better, thankfully.

mummy and the christmas tree!

my sister took this and I told her it looks like it belongs in national geographic. haha it does right!?

the picture does not do the food justice at all. every dish was delectable, I still dream about them now. haha especially the five brown square things, so crunchy and yummy. rawr I want to marry the chef so that I can eat it everyday!

second day:

we went to cameron highlands and explored their farms and plantations. went to the butterfly place, strawberry farm, tea plantation, rose garden etc. I love the strawberry farm and rose garden! at the strawberry farm we got to pick our own strawberries and as we picked, we stuffed ourselves with strawberries. then my mum bought us strawberry ice cream and boxes of dried strawberries. I totally overdosed on strawberries man! I think I ate at least 30 fresh ones, 5 fresh ones coated with chocolate and 20 dried ones in that one day. now I dun think I can ever look at strawberries in the same way again.

this is the tea plantation!

okay I admit im quite qian bian here. oh, and I need to thin my hair, it looks damn thick here!

and this is probably typical and not unique but here's my favourite flower! haha love red roses.

my sister and the view from our room at cameron highlands. we were freezing our butts off despite the room having no air-con and the windows all tightly shut.

this is one of the meat baos that can be found in malaysia. haha I took this photo to show how small my face actually is. haha yay I have a small face! yeah call me delusional, whatever. oh and guess what?!? I ate the entire thing for lunch. so just like strawberries, I can never look at meat baos in the same way too hahahaha.

day three:

genting day! my parents did not follow us to the theme park, they went to the casino! haha but the three of us had truckloads of fun. this time round all the rides were open!

space-shot! dun know whether it's my imagination or did it get less scary?!

nice right nice right I took this picture! haha it looks so professional. :D viting the photographer yo!

day four:

haha we had some free and easy time and it's home sweet home!

okayyy finally posted everything. now my cramps are slightly better, thanks to the pink pills and I am sad because I want steak! ): should I head to bugis now?! yes no yes no??!

2010-12-24T05:49:00.000-08:00

I JUST DID A LONG POST COMPLETED WITH MANY MANY PICTURES BUT IT GOT SCREWED UP AND NOW EVERYTHING'S GONE! SIGH WHYYY WASTED MY TWO HOURS PLUS OH WELL WHATEVER I AM TOO ANGRY TO POST NOW AM GOING TO BED WILL POST TMR BYE.

2010-12-18T02:58:00.000-08:00

unfortunately not! (at least I dun think so)

haha but it's a reaaallyy short trip, will be back in four days. meanwhile, stay awesome everybody! <3333

2010-12-12T00:42:00.000-08:00

screw mid sem tests! I am so going to flunk everything despite studying and I give up man. I actually went into all the tests pretty confident, with my mind bursting with facts and I just wanted to transfer all the facts I memorised onto paper. but the papers were freaking screwed up!

most screwed up: RM and SMIT (tie)
I have nothing to say except that they are really super screwed up and I totally screwed up at both papers. the worst part? nobody else seemed to find the SMIT paper difficult except me like what the hell it was obviously a crazy paper. nothing else I studied came out except for the stupid CEM framework and CRM principles. which means, I completely wasted my time and memory space, could have used it to do something more meaningful and fulfilling like watching dramas or reblogging. :P overall I think I will fail this, no confidence for any of the questions, even my examples for CEM and CRM were nothing but a stupid chunk of crap.

and as if that was not bad enough, RM has to be worse. rawr dun even want to talk about it all the questions were so lame that I can take a chopper and chop off my legs so that I become as lame as them. like what the hell almost every question was weird and unpredictable! you know, the most insignificant thing which is like only one slide in the bloody notes?!? yeah those were the ones that were tested! not the evidently important points that he emphasized on doing tutorials or the ones that took up 6326 pages in the notes! when I read the questions I was like, is this a joke?!?

okay let me estimate how many marks have been deducted:

the shower question = 0
Helsinki and Mali = 0
ski area = 0 (this is makes me angry, but at myself. how could I have been so dumb and confused the "ski area" points with "site design" point?!?
spa trends = 0

basically, I think the only question I got correct was the resorts trends one, question 4. FML.

second most screwed up paper: tourism law
hahaha but I did not study as hard for this so whatever. :D it is actually not that bad as well, except that I did not study the points for the first question. nonetheless, I am crossing my fingers and hoping that this will not turn out to be that bad.

least screwed up paper: shopping mall management
this one was actually quite a good paper for me, I am pretty confident so please dun let me down! :D

oh well. sorry for being so boring and annoying, nothing but complaints and complaints. the above was quite angsty but I just needed to get everything out of my system! :D thanks to the friends who had to put up with my incessant rants too, you guys are the best!

anyway it's my holidays now and I am loving every minute of it so far. looking forward to reading, lazy afternoons at starbucks(or JCO, I am falling in love with that place and their green tea frappe is almost as good as stabucks's), wasting an entire day lazing on the couch and staring at my nails/toenails/table/ceiling, tumblr-ing the entire day away, watching dramas, quality time with friends, quality time with myself, a short getaway with my family, shopping( or rather, window shopping. sigh I am sadly as broke as ever), pigging out on good food and the list goes on! oh yah, might have to get started on some of the projects too. haha so that we would not have to gulp coffee to stay awake everynight just to complete reports and meet deadlines.

that's all for now. till next time!

" a person with good thoughts cannot ever be ugly.
you can have a wonky nose and a crooked mouth and a
double chin and stick-out teeth, but if you have good
thoughts they will shine out of your face like sunbeams
and you will always look lovely. -roald dahl "

2010-12-07T01:37:00.000-08:00

spent most of today drawing enough mind maps to qualify for the Guinness world records. draw a box and branch out, draw another box and branch out, then branch out four times for four different points x 3283621 times. :D :D I think I will dream of trees sprouting branches non-stop when I sleep later man!

anyway first paper tomorrow or technically, later! all the best to all the shopping mall people! for the past few days I have been saying how the module test will be a breeze and how only need a few hours to read through the notes. haha but guess what?! I took almost the entire day and now whenever I think of anything related, my mind goes blank. this is great, just great. goes to show how lousy my brain can be at times sigh.

oh well what will be, will be. hahahaha off to bed goodnight folks, wish me luck! :D

2010-11-29T22:09:00.000-08:00

satisfied my craving for koi hazelnut milk tea today and it makes me happy. :D shitian had the passionfruit ai yu tea and after trying some, I found it awesome oh my god hahaha I am going to have that next time!

anyway on a completely random note, time is passing really fast and I am scared.

2010-11-29T02:58:00.000-08:00

spent my entire weekend on the shopping mall project. how about yours? hope your weekend was more fun than mine. :D

anyway today my sister told me that obama = lewis hamilton and I nearly choked on my fishball. hahaha honestly, just because they are noth black does not make them twins! though I must admit I went to google their images just now and there is some kind of uncanny resemblance?!

and my dad tried to pay with a hundred dollar note for $1.20 lime juice. I could swear I saw the drinks uncle rolling his eyes.

super pointless day.

but at least I think the project is more or less done?! meeting shitian early tomorrow to consolidate everything and print. hopefully our magazine concept would be well-received by the lecturer man!

guess what?!? after tomorrow, I WOULD NOT HAVE TO TOUCH PROJECTS ~~FOR THE REST OF MY LIFE!~~ errr at least for another 2 weeks! well, thats better than nothing right? and screw mid sem tests.

2010-11-26T09:09:00.000-08:00

I am in school because our group was supposed to meet early. but I cannot find anyone because I freaking forgot to bring my handphone out. what the hell, I feel so handicapped without my handphone. now I am just hoping that they will walk up and see me soon, I am at the yellow benches people!!

2010-11-25T22:53:00.000-08:00

I love carousals, they are so romantic! :D wish I could be there, enjoying my own company, feeling the breeze against my face, laying on the bench and looking at the stars...basically, I want to forget everything and just...be. :D

2010-11-25T00:40:00.000-08:00

okay this is totally puke material but I am choosing to post it up nonetheless. so that you guys understand the amount of insane-ness I get subjected to at home, my brother being the main culprit. haha so basically, my pinky toe nail(I like to call my last toe my pinky toe because it sounds cute) came off just now. gross right!?! I know!! the whole thing just decided to detach itself from my toe. thankfully, it did not hurt that bad or anything, just weird. oh and I kept the nail, in case anyone's interested. :P

in case you are wondering how that makes my brother insane, im coming to that! he was beside me when my toe nail fell out so I showed it to him. hahaha for some strange reason which I am almost afraid to know, he found the whole episode very interesting. yup so he started to attempt at making his own toe nail fall out. and guess what?!? HE TORE HIS NAIL AND THERE WAS BLOOD LIKE ALL OVER MY FREAKING BED.

I mean, isn't there a limit to just how stupid someone can get?!

fine, it was actually quite entertaining. but that does not justify how entirely pointless, not to mention dumb, the whole thing was!

anyway, putting the whole episode aside, I shall review some of the projects and what I have left to complete.

SMIT will be handed in tomorrow, which I am sure would be a huge load off many. haha I like our cover page and the box we are putting our report and appendices in! hopefully it helps in scoring some brownie points with miss kwok. :D yuppp and working with this group had been fun so far. unlike all my previous groups, we are much less last-minute, which I deem as a positive thing of course!

then GBE presentation will be on friday. our group is surprisingly calm despite having prepared nothing. hahaha oh well, guess tomorrow will be a long day of trying to design the summary, come up with questions and do the powerpoint slides etc. speaking of tomorrow, I must not skip school no matter what! even if a typhoon hits my house I will still grab all my books and head to school by 8am. wish me luck, and determination, and that my alarms(four) would actually work. :D

finally, there is SMM to be submitted by next monday but is pretty much untouched. oh my heaven and earth green tea!

hahaha sorry I know it is difficult to catch my train of thoughts sometimes. I write about toe nails, then my brother's toe nails, then projects and not skipping school and suddenly you see "heaven and earth green tea." like whaaaatt?!? heehee but this is me, lying on the bed(bloody bed) with loud music blasting into my ears(which is estimated to cause deafness by 60 years old. I know, I so deserve it right!) and trying to think instead of falling asleep. with me at such a state, guess you guys will have to make do with this.

till next time! :D :D

2010-11-21T05:19:00.000-08:00

you are forgiven, okay? :D

anyway, I am literally bending over in pain now. my stomach hurts so freaking bad! I think I might die soon man, seriously. I half-crawled to get the panadol from the kitchen because I am unable to straighten my back, hurts too much. just took two pills, now I am just hoping that it gets better soon so that I can make my way to my bed and catch some sleep.

thank goodness my laptop is with me in the living room. so at least it keeps entertained. :D

meanwhile, shall suffer alone and hope my sister notices and offer to make me some milo. see, so sad right?! suffering pathetically still must wait for people to notice because apparently she cares about her books more than me.

2010-11-19T00:43:00.000-08:00

I am so hungry that I wouldn't be surprised to find myself eating my toes. hahahaha okay maybe not...but I am really super hungry now! if someone could cook me some mushroom soup or banana waffles or hokkien mee or perhaps even fish and chips I would gladly chop off my toes as a thankyou gift.

why doesn't my house have any food?! not even eggs! which means I cannot even cook my maggie because maggie without eggs is just bleah. ): my kitchen does not have bread too, and it's like, EVERYONE has bread. it's almost a sin not be have bread. I want breadddd! ):

need to visit the supermarket pronto! because evidently my mum doesn't seem to be doing so.

by the way, I skipped school again today because my alarm clocks failed me. I seriously seriously intended to go to school because I skipped last thursday. yeah but my life just sucks like that sometimes.

2010-11-16T01:08:00.000-08:00

I am convinced that my sore throat will NEVER RECOVER and it makes me sad. I dun want to have this stupid voice foreverrrr! ):

anyway, finally submitted the GBE report today. shall not elaborate on my failure to wake up for school in the morning, despite setting three alarms. haha from tomorrow onwards I am going to get my mum to wake me up everyday so I will not be late ever again man. :D

after school, we went to celebrate the oompletion of GBE and Pychology(for them). for the first time since school started, we went to town together after lessons! had the korean food I missed, drinks at TCC and BFF. yup, and so life is good!

off to bed now, 10am lesson tomorrow! rawr may my voice recover soon, I want to sing again!

2010-11-10T01:51:00.000-08:00

I AM DEAD LIKE A FISH BUT ALL I CAN DO IS...BLOG!? oh man oh man my report is like not even done and that globalisation project is yet to be started! to be honest, I feel quite stressed because I dun want to let my group down. yup but what am I doing about it? NOTHING. I have been sitting on my bed for the past hour online shopping, or online window shopping to be exact.

I wish I was less lazy. ):

anyway last friday, which was deepavali, we went to MBS to stay for a night and it was damn awesome! hahaha oh yah I am digressing but must share this, super funny man. just now we saw yanping's planner and she wrote "devapali" instead of "deepavali". FUNNY RIGHT!?! hahaha DEVAPALI! try saying it, sounds really cute. haha why do I have such a lame friend!!?! :P

okay back to topic! MBS was even nicer than I expected, in terms of the room we stayed in. yup because shuf's mum's friend(haha) managed to get us an upgrade to the premier room or something and the premier room was awesome! once we entered, we started highing like some retards and jumping around the room, squealing the whole time. the room was niceee, we have our own balcony and the toilet was like the size of my room! :D :D

if only I could stay there forever. *wistful*

anyway we also went up to swim in the infinity pool everyone talked about, quite cool man. the only bad thing was, there were many people walking around and it was kinda weird, not very exclusive. I think it could be because the public are still excited about this new hotel and are all taking the holiday to visit?

oh well, pictures below! I painstakingly uploaded them! (only 3 haha cos too lazy to upload man. wish I am not so lazy.) my favourite out of the three is the last one, where we look like ghosts in the midst of dis-integrating. or like the wicked witch of the west when she was melting!

alright off to bed now. shall have nightmares about projects hahaha goodnight, hope you guys will not have nightmares like me. :)

2010-11-07T03:56:00.000-08:00

when it's time for bed, my brain automatically switches into the thinking mode and I start to ponder about everything under the sun. why must my brain be so freaking active right before bedtime and yet so inactive when I need it most?!

random things I think about:

1) I make plans for the next day. basically I think of what to wear, what shows there are on television the next day, who I am going to meet, possible activities to do, what to have for breakfast in the morning and a bunch of other nonsense. like should I pair my canvas shoes with shorts or jeans? should I have bread with nutella or peanut butter or kaya or nutella and peanut butter or peanut butter and kaya or all the spreads?! should I tell my mum not to cook radish soup because it smells like puke and I hate it?!

2) I start thinking of a thousand "what ifs". what if I have a million dollars, will I save half of it or three-quarters of it and should I use some of it to treat my friends? if yes, which friends should I treat and what would they like to eat? western food like maybe fish and co or chinese food like ding tai fung or even japanese food like ichiban?! or should I treat them to something more extravagant like buffet at carousel?! what if we went to have ichiban in the end and the sashimi they serve suddenly became cooked pieces of salmon?! hahaha can you imagine? cooked salmon = sashimi :D :D

3) I think of people. I think of my friends and our conversations, some funny, some interesting and some meaningless. I think of the whether they did anything rude to me and why they did what they did. I think of who my true friends are and why I consider them that. sometimes I also start missing people that I grew apart from. I start wishing we never did.

4) I think of scenes in shows. crayon shinchan where la pi xiao xin started running in circles to irritate his mum, my taiwan dramas with all the cute actors, fighting scenes in movies, the scene where the actress gave the main lead a slap cross the face etc etc.

5) The meaning of life HAHAHAHA. yes, seriously I do think about this.

and the list goes on and on and on. "it goes on and on and on yeahhhh~ I'm gonna put my hands up in the air sometimes~~~" *breaks into a song*

HAHAHAHA okay back to this.

so now I am facing this problem and thus decided to blog! figured it would work better than attempting to force all thoughts out of my brain. at least typing all my nonsense out clears my head and as for whether you guys find it coherent or not, that's not one of my main worries. :)

on a completely unrelated note, guys guess what?!? I am officially unable to talk. yeah I lost my voice for the past two days. my friends had to endure my desperate attempts to talk, which ended up sounding more of like a croak most of the time, and also attempt to decode my frantic gesturing. oh well. at least I think it's slightly better now, I should get my voice back...tomorrow? :) hopefully, I hate not being able to talk/sing.

because of this stupid sore throat, I also skipped school for the first time last wednesday, stayed home and had a good rest. thanks to everyone who wished me well. :)

alright, need to go sleep now. the majority of tomorrow shall be dedicated to the lovely projects, thanks for ruining my sunday. this is like, only week three and already we have tons of projects lined up and deadlines coming up in less than two weeks. I suspect the school is secretly trying to kill us. maybe our principal is an alien and he wants to overtake the world. his strategy is to give us projects and make us work until we are weak. killing the human population and taking over the world would then become a breeze!

wahaha but too bad we are not going to let aliens take over us so easily, especially me. I am going to have a longgg rest and prepare to fight tomorrow!

tomorrow's mission: to finish my SMIT individual part and to research on GBE project.

cheers!

2010-10-31T23:25:00.000-07:00

today, I opened the mailbox and found lollipops for me and that really made my day. :) thanks for remembering that these were my favourite when we used to study together. and also that I like the strawberry and cream ones the most.

I think this was the most exciting thing that happened to me today. as for the rest of today, I spent it: lazing on the couch/indulging on junk food like girl guide cookies and cheap(but good) vanilla ice cream/reading a book/taking a grand total of three naps/staring blankly at the television playing completely uninspiring shows/attempting to start on my SMIT project/making awesome milo + oreo + milk + timtams ice blended drink for the family/listening to music. basically, today was super lazy but I love such days the most. <3

as for yesterday, JW and I cycled all the way to this unknown part of sembawang and had supper. then we went to sembawang park and talked about a lot of crazy deep stuffs which was like, so not us. hahaha but I suppose I can be deep and intellectual once in a while? :)

so the above pretty much summarises my weekend.

as for the school days, it was just the usual. I went to school faithfully and had yet to skip a single lesson since school started a few weeks ago. I know, I am awesome right?! hahahahaha.

overall, it had been an awesome week, thanks to all the people and things that made it so. I am grateful for you all.

:D till next time!

2010-10-25T02:33:00.000-07:00

I made some changes to my blogskin, but I kept the background because everytime I look at it, I think of myself lying on clouds and eating cotton candy. it makes me happy. :D also, I have links now. I have yet to link any of my friends though, maybe one day when I am less lazy?!?

anyway I had an awesome weekend and tomorrow will be monday, yet another week of school! haha I am actually quite excited, school is pretty fun at the moment.

for the sake of my eyebags I should head to bed now. goodnight!

2010-10-20T00:50:00.000-07:00

the most memorable thing I reblogged today:

"Hell is here, right here on earth. Tucked away in a place that can not be seen. We are blind to the true hands of Satan that gradually steal food, home and life of humans, human … just like us.

We complain every day about things that we can have another day.
They are expecting a little more than half of what you throw away."

credits: omgitsliz

this is so heart wrenching and sad. I want walk over and hand him a bowl of rice or a subway sandwich or put my arms around him or something! something to make this better. but truth is, even if I can give him food, what about the millions and millions of other starving people all around the world?!

I am fortunate.

admittedly, I complain excessively and I know that it can be really exasperating. I get on my own nerves too. but it's when I see a message like the one above that I realise all the things I complain about are so trivial and insignificant. when I open the fridge and if there is no ice cream, I start blaming my mother for not stocking up on it. meanwhile, people out there are dying of hunger and would die for food, any food at all. ice cream?! what is ice cream? they have never tasted bread, or rice, or water, much less ice cream.

a quarter of the world's population survives on several cents a day. I buy ridiculously overpriced starbucks coffee on a regular basis.

just an hour ago, I had been complaining about how tiring it is to have to do the dishes every night. if you guys have never hear me talking about this, my family has this practice - we would hold a mini meeting once every few months and discuss how the chores should be done. despite my repeated refusals, mine is officially now "wash the dishes and fold clothes every night." (it is really quite sucky la, but THIS IS THE LAST TIME I AM GOING TO COMPLAIN. HAHAHAHA)

next time I catch myself falling back into the complaining game, I am going to remind myself of this show I saw on channel 8 a few months ago. in one of the episodes, the crew filmed the life of this poor and abandoned old lady and her retarded grandson. the heartless daughter of this old lady/mother of the retarded son left the family as she did not want to be responsible for her son, just because he was different. even more unacceptable, she left the old lady because she became her burden. (what the hell right?!? people scrimped and saved just to send you for education and give you a proper home and this is how you repay her?! I was literally seething with rage when I watched the show but in any case, I have come to terms with it. some people are just heartless. this will NEVER be me.)

anyway, I remember the old lady showing the crew her cramped one-room flat. there was no furniture to speak of. instead, the place was filled with old newspapers, empty cans and other things the rest of us would deem as rubbish. then, at one corner, sat her grandson. I think I could never forget the tears in her eyes as she pointed to him and introduced him as the "most important thing in her life" while he scraped plain porridge out of a small bowl. he was being careful, taking his time to get every last grain onto the spoon. then, he fed the last mouthful to the old lady.

it totally broke my heart.

and I am sure the old lady is not the only unfortunate one out there. there are many others!

so...I have an 8am lesson every monday. I cannot buy new clothes because I am broke. I have to wash the dishes every night. I have to squeeze in the train tomorrow morning.(9am lesson die die have to squeeze la) but what are all these compared to what is happening to the old lady, the starving guy in the picture, the many others suffering around the world?

it is easy to forget about being grateful.

but when I forget, I will think about the tears rolling down the old lady's wrinkled cheek and the boy scraping every last bit of porridge. how can I complain? how can I not be grateful?

I am going to believe in having enough. :D I will be thankful and happy with what I have.

and this is my genius ling3 wu4 for today. :D

2010-10-17T19:16:00.000-07:00

shall blog about last wednesday!

we celebrated the birthday of all the october babies in our class. :D happy birthday guys! :D :D

and school is officially starting tomorrow! we are so going to rock this semester, I just know it! :D although my gpa is hopeless, I can still rock right?!? something else worth mentioning, foodcourt six I am back! my drumlets, nuggets, banana cake, chicken rice add egg, prawn noodles, meatball soup add egg and yong tau foo I know you guys miss me! hahaha I miss you guys too!

on the side note, my skin is peeling quite badly now and it is so freaking digusting. my arm now looks all flaky and patchy and I am super sad. my skin is really quite lag, it has been weeks since I came back from bali and it has just started peeling now?!? FML.

also, whatisdope's collection is pretty good this time round. I like quite a few items! yeah but my bank is so empty now! strutt is also launching later and the preview looks good but I have to stop myself from buying anything. FML x2.

I shall go wallow in self pity now. goodbye people, hope you guys are not as broke as me. :D

2010-10-16T10:28:00.000-07:00

I think if there is a competition for the most unlucky person in the world, you guys would see me there, clutching a gold medal in victory. hahaha seriously, I am so unlucky it's not even funny anymore. anyway I shall not begin explaining why, it is quite a long story. also, please do not ask, because I am too lazy to relate. the purpose of this is for when you guys feel unlucky, simply think of me and feel better, because there is someone out there worse than you. :D

my friend told me there's this popular phrase for unlucky people. "people who would fall on their back and suffer a broken nose." hahahaha this is such a good one I think! :D to celebrate the invention of such a cool phrase, I created another which is inspired by it. "people who crash flat on their faces and end up with a broken spine." which is, more or less the same thing. just that I die die must have my own version.

anyway this is random but I have decided that if I ever created a hand sanitizer, I would create one which kills 100% germs instead of 99.9%. dettol, keri-keri and all the other brands, time to improve your product!

this is also quite random but I really love Amber and Eason, their songs. :D so very therapeutic. haha have been listening since last night. I fell asleep pretty early last night, while listening to their songs on repeat, and woke up to their songs this morning. cheers to my mp3, for awesome battery life!

只能说我输了,也许是你怕了
我们的回忆没有皱褶
你却用离开淌下句点

off to catch a movie! haha but I am prepared for an aching neck because today is saturday and we would be lucky to get front row seats.

to all the awesome people in the world, have an amazing weekend! (ignore this if you are not awesome) :D :D :D

2010-10-08T12:40:00.000-07:00

had an awesome day today! :D love the nice food and company. :D :D

on a side note, I love the googlygooeys. they are seriously too cute to handle, I was happily reblogging them at starbucks this afternoon on rach's new laptop.

my favourites:

my friends say this is me, because I say "awesome" quite a lot.

this is me, always.

exactly. I cannot stand it when people do this. I know you watched it before, thanks for spoiling the show for me.

that's all for now. cheers!

2010-10-07T02:50:00.000-07:00

I just realised it when I saw this. how awesome is that?! :D high-five to five fridays, saturdays and sundays! too bad it is my holiday now and I dun keep track of which day in the week it is. everyday is like saturday. and no, I am definitely not complaining.

school is starting in less than two weeks though! I am now treasuring the remaining time I have. :D

anyway this is random but I thought I would post about my conversation with a friend about how we are all going to die one day.

conversation topic: we all die one day.

contents: we decided to end all sentences with, "you are still going to die one day."

1) even if you work your ass off for that fat paycheck every month, you are still going to die one day.
2) no matter how many bags you own, you are still going to die one day.
3) you can spend every minute of your life studying but you are still going to die one day.
4) no matter how hard you try to be the perfect size 6, you are still going to die one day.
5) so what if you spend your entire life trying to please everyone and make them like you, you are still going to die one day.
6) no matter how much time you spend hating life, you are still going to die one day.
7) even if you are the prettiest person on earth, you are still going to die one day.
8) you can choose to spend your life never taking any risks, you are still going to die one day.
9) even if you eat vitamin A, B, C, D, K, calcium and iron pills daily, you are still going to die one day.
10) you can stay home and sleep all day but you are still going to die one day.

these are just some, haha we came up with one whole long list. stupid, but we had fun.

conclusion: no matter what you do, you will someday die.

moral of story: I leave this up to you. :D personally I am not a very philosophical person. you know, people that can not just read the lines but also read between the lines to come up with all sorts of meaningful stuffs. so all I conclude is....I am going to die someday. oh wow, bet you guys never knew that. =.=

hahahahahaha I know, I should just curl on my bed with my chips and wait for my death.

kidding! I have my own hopes for the future and everything okay! :D but for now, I, together with my hopes and dreams, am going to cook maggie mee(again! all that msg!) to eat in bed. yay-ness!

2010-10-06T03:50:00.000-07:00

back from bali back from bali back from bali! haha actually I have been back for a few days but have just gotten down to blogging about it. :) for this post, I have pictures! hahaha thanks to my friends. because although I brought my camera along, I gave up after the first day(as usual) and chucked my camera in the hotel room. oh well, does not matter, the rest of my friends are much better photographers anyway. :)

DAY ONE:

we took the evening flight so it was already late when we got there. we spent ten million years at the bali airport waiting for our luggage and it was really frustrating. we saw the same few bags going around and around on the conveyor belt but ours never came! just as we were about to faint from the wait, we saw our bags! then we spent another ten million years waiting to clear the security checks and everything.

we thought our guide might have given up waiting and left, because we were more than an hour late. haha but yay she was still there! she was holding a placard with kiankiat's name so we identified her immediately.

her name is suzi but somehow we preferred to call her sushi. :) such a cute name, I used to have a pet mouse called sushi too. I miss sushi so much! (the mouse, not so much the guide, although she was nice.) anyway! we were driven to the hotel in a van. our hotel is called Risata and I love the hotel. it was great in terms of almost all aspects like the service, location, breakfast and rooms. if you guys decide to go to bali next time, I recommend Risata!

the three girls in the van!

all of us in the van. :) immediately after taking this one of my irritating friends said something about putting my arm around the person next to me(when there was obviously no one) and it scared the soul out of me. hahaha reminded me of this ghost story la. rawr imagine if someone appeared next to me in the picture or something. I would just die.

after jumping around on our hotel beds and attempting to unpack some of our belongings, we decided to head out for some food! did not go very far because it was already pretty late. we ended up exploring a little near our hotel and settled on this decent looking restaurant with over-enthusiastic greeters and expressionless waitresses.

the restaurant, we were waiting for our food.

the meal was super exciting. we had ants crawling all around us, mosquitoes biting us incessantly and cats running under the table and looking at us with pleading eyes, they wanted our food! haha but none of these can compare to the FLYING COCKROACH. thinking of how it appeared is making me grin like an idiot. hohoho we were happily gobbling the food down when OUT OF NOWHERE this UFO-unidentified flying object landed in front of this friend, he literally FLEW out of his seat and JUMPED TEN FEET away. hahahahaha the rest of us stoned for three seconds and simultaneously burst into uncontrollable laughter. seriously I laughed until my jaw hurt. I know it was mean but his face was EPIC. :D :D

after the meal, we went back to our hotel room and crashed. the bed was so so comfortable and sleep quality was perfect.

DAY TWO:

it took utmost effort to climb out of bed but eventually we did, wanted to have breakfast before the long day ahead.

summary of today: we explored three temples and had seafood dinner at jimbaran.

we started by visiting the temple on land.

then proceeded to temple by the lake.

finally, temple by the sea.

we were told that bali is also known as the land of thousand temples so there are plenty of temples! haha luckily we only visited three, I am not exactly a fan of temple visits. :) our tour guide did not explain much to us, we spent most of the time taking jump shots, self shots, group shots, scenery shots, all kinds of shots.

some of the pictures we took at the three temples!

haha I was just being nonsensical, I had mine a week before the trip.

the ride from one temple to another took some time and to kill time...

we played cards! hahaha i know, we are incorrigible.

for dinner, we went to jimbaran for seafood by the sea. it was incredibly romantic for couples to dine there and cosy for friends. :) we had a good time enjoying the seafood and talking.

see, there are even people singing to us. apparently they learnt many songs in different languages and since somebody said we were from korea, they sang this song in korean. I was told that it is the korea's national song?!

DAY THREE:

we woke up bright and early for white water rafting!

before it started, when we were excited and still dry.

the whole activity took an hour and it was really awesome. :) our instructor was a fun-loving guy and I think he helped to make it more fun. he made us crash into all the big rocks and made us go fast at all the rapids.

because each raft could only sit 4 people, kiankiat and meitong went on another. they kept trying to bump into out raft and splash water in our faces. haha idiots! our instructor helped us to attack them back and he was good, strong enough to cause a huge splash right at their faces. cool beans. :)

oh yah something worth mentioning...our friend meitong decided to fall off the raft and into the gushing river full of rocks but luckily he got saved by his instructor. thankfully all he suffered was a swollen knee.

we were in our raft the whole time watching the entertaining performance. hohoho we are such good friends.

one of my slippers got washed away while rafting! haha luckily it was just a hotel slipper, we were smart enough to wear those instead of our own slippers. :)

after the whole activity, we went to the hotel to change. afterwards, we proceeded to the beach! it was a short walk from our hotel to kuta beach, the most popular tourist beach in bali. spent the rest of the day there, enjoying the sun + sea + sand + company. <3

we rented surf boards! :) it was fun trying to surf, the feeling of being carried by the wave was fantastic and strangely therapeutic. I also like the feeling of not knowing what will happen when you hop on top of the surf board in the sea, right when a huge wave approaches. it may throw you off, you may ride it out, but that moment of uncertainty rocked my socks!

the feeling is hard to share, you have to try it for yourself! I did not manage to stand on the surf board or anything. nonetheless, it was fun. would love to try again if given the chance.

we spent several hours at the beach and watched the sunset there too!

it was really pretty!

finally, it was late and we decided to head back to the hotel to bathe and have dinner. :) we walked all the way back covered in dirt, seawater and sand.

halfway through we stopped to camwhore.

then for dinner, we went to hard rock cafe. :) had lovely fish and chips. for dessert, we went to this cafe for their blended drinks and banana pancake with ice cream.

back at the hotel, we decided to surprise liying for her birthday! :)haha we were all in our pyjamas getting ready to sleep. she was in the midst of putting on a face mask when clarence burst in with the cake we ordered!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY LIYING! MAY ALL YOUR WISHES COME TRUE.

after stuffing my face with cake(we finished the whole thing), we crashed!

DAY FOUR:

we went to watch the balinese dance.

then visited the batik factory which I like and also this wood carving place which was rather boring. afterwards we also went to this palace and a shopping place and a traditional balinese house. basically, a lot of places! haha not going to be describing as I feel ready to puke from all the typing + uploading already. seriously, this is why I dun blog with pictures most of the time, too tedious. whatever, pictures below! going to let them speak. :)

the kid obviously loves me. see the way he turns his head all the wayyy back to look at me?! :) heehee love kids, they are so adorable.

after the day of tours, we decided to unwind by going for a 2 hour spa package. we did a traditional balinese massage, body scrub and jacuzzi. :) it was super relaxing, so much that I fell asleep. the scrub left my body really smooth. however, there was an open wound on my knee that killed me whenever she scrubbed near that area.

anyway, they did not have enough single rooms so some of us had to share. I shared with angie and I thought it would be awkward at first but turned out, not really! haha we just concentrated on ourselves and dun care about the other person. anyway whatever I have, she always has so yeah. :)

when we were finally done with the spa, all of us were famished. I was so hungry that I was not hungry anymore. after dropping some things off at the hotel, we headed out for dinner/supper. wanted to have A&W(love their waffles!) but it was closed! we ended up having some simple dinner at this random place, too insignificent to remember, except that they forgot my order.

after dinner, we headed back to the hotel to play cards and sleep!

DAY FIVE & SIX:

water theme park day!

we tried nearly all the rides and slides. haha I learnt the looks can be deceiving, some slides looked innocent but were actually pretty scary. but for me, the more thrilling it is the better! :) my friends had the same mentality so we just went and played until we were all dead-beat before deciding to leave.

the three girls were wearing the same bintang top, along with 273728786 other tourists in bali. haha cheap la, less than 30000 rupees for one. I bought three. :)

went to have A&W afterwards! was not as nice as I remember it to me. used to have it with my family all the time when there was still an outlet at ang mo kio. oh my gosh that was ages ago!

we wanted to watch the sunrise so we went back early to sleep. woke up again at 3 plus and I dun know how on earth I managed to drag my fatique self out of bed to watch the sunrise but well, I did. we all did. :)

I love the sunrise. have always been more of a sunrise than a sunset person. :) but somehow it is always much easier to catch a sunset than a sunrise.

afterwards, we went back for breakfast and crashed until afternoon. we checked out and then went for sea activities at sanur beach. it was insane! haha we went for the parasailing, donut(crazy one!) and banana boat. for parasailing, we were towed behind a boat while attached to a parachute. it was cool like cucumbers, we did not have to use any strength but we went flying! it was the feeling of being free as a bird. :) as for donut, we sat on this rubber boat thing and held on for our dear lives while we got pulled around by another boat. this was the best yet craziest activity, we nearly flew off the boat and crashed into the sea many times but thankfully we really held on damn tight for our lives hahaha. :) as for banana boat, I think most people have played this before. basically, we sat on a boat which resembles an orange. hahahaha im kidding, it is called a BANANA boat for a reason.

we were too busy playing so no pictures! the best memories are kept safely in me anyway! :)

P.S. I am finally done! this post drained me of all my energy and now I want to puke. haha off to cook my maggie and then sleep!

2010-09-27T11:49:00.000-07:00

the genius is flying to BALI! :D
will be back next saturday night.
if you need to look for me, can email! haha i will try to check.

2010-09-25T13:45:00.000-07:00

last night I overdosed on flu pills + warm water in my eager efforts to prevent the flu from becoming worse. instead of one pill I took three, and washed it down with five glasses of warm water.

result: disastrous night

why? :
1) super drowsy! half an hour into taking the pill, I was cross-eyed. I literally started seeing double, looked into the mirror and saw two of me. :D hahaha then somehow I made my way to the bed and slept.

2) woke up ten million times during the night to pee, thanks to the water parade. did not help that I feeling extremely drowsy and my world was spinning. but the genius me still managed to climb out of bed, make my way to the toilet in the dark, pee, flush the toilet, head back to bed and crash again. process repeats itself x countless times.

3) kept breaking out in cold sweat.

but it all paid off in the end. because I FEEL AS FIT AS A FIDDLE NOW! haha dun know whether that is the term to use but in any case, I feel alright again in the morning. :D :D

anyway I am lazing on the couch typing this, feeling too lazy to move. but I need to leave the house soon, if not sure late. stupid rain! super not helping.

OKAY NEED TO RUSH SERIOUSLY HAHA BYE! :D

2010-09-25T02:20:00.000-07:00

I think I am coming down with the flu. okay recently I have been getting sick easily, am becoming quite weak. to think I used to be known as "the healthy one." the one who never got sick from playing in the rain, eating enough durians to feed ten famished african kids, not sleeping for 2 nights etc etc.

I think I must be getting old. body functions all degrading already.

but I think I also owe this to the countless late nights and the chocolates and the mooncakes. oh yes definitely the mooncakes! I think I ate like one whole box?! there was the yam one, and the white lotus, and the durian and the green tea one (which was very addictive) and a couple more small ice cream ones. what the hell right?!? I am such a pig, honestly. but I love love love those mooncakes, savouring them while enjoying the company of the family was awesome. :D

note: each mooncake has around 1000 calories on average, so in the past few days I consumed more than 5000 calories worth of mooncakes alone fml. hahaha but nevermind, it was worth it. really yummy!

this year's mooncake festive was spent only with the family. we went to chinatown and had delicious timsum at this place called qunzhong-something. haha will bring interested friends there next time, the xiaolongbaos are nicer than dtf's and crystaljade's in my opinion. apart from that we also went to sembawang park and there, we basically did stupid things like use candles to form our names and made a bonfire. no lanterns this year though!

now I am going to swallow two flu pills and crash. please make me all better when I wake up. :) mount sophia-ing with the weirdo tomorrow!

2010-09-18T00:10:00.000-07:00

why is spongebob the most ideal friend?

patrick: he still loves me even if i am stupid. he ignores my weaknesses.
squidwerd: i always drive him away and yet he is still there for me. he never left me behind.
mr krabs: he respects me although all i desire is money. he respects what i want.
sandy: he is still my friend even though i am a land squrriel and not a sea creature. he accepts me despite our differences.

- credits to timelessoverforever

today my friend told me the reason why he loves watching spongebob squarepants so much and I thought of this. think about it, who is the spongebob in your life? :)

2010-09-17T04:15:00.000-07:00

I love the holidays. it allows me to sleep whenever I want, wake up to eat and then sleep again. :D It also allows me stay up to watch television re-runs and reblog random things on tumblr and blog and drink my homemade milo dinosaur. I am currently doing everything mentioned, while listening to emo songs on repeat. <3

can life get more perfect than this?

speaking of songs, I finally bought new earphones. my old ones were broken on one side and the rubber came off on the other side. you guys should see it, my sister saw it and she was like "what are your earphones doing here, it belongs in the bin." still, I lived with those for one week?! it was terrible. good music is imperative as it makes me happy, and I am glad for the new ones. my emo songs sound even more emo through the new earphones but listening to sad songs when I am happy makes me happier so all's good. :D

and now it's back to my drama, was waiting for it to load.

anyway I will be blogging much more often now(i know i always say that but this time it's true!) because I like typing at night. I like it that everyone is asleep, and all is quiet except the rhythmic "click click" sound of me typing on my laptop. I think the sound is very mysterious. reminds me of the game/book cluedo, when everyone is asleep and miss scarlet will go to the kitchen and solve the mystery of the missing vase. hahaha I can still remember all the characters! my favourite is professor plum because his name is very cute. :D my second favourite is colonel mustard because I like yellow and mustard comes quite close. :D I am really bad at the game though, I tend to find everyone suspicious.

but back to the point, I am off to watch my drama! this episode is super exciting ohmanxzxzokaybye!

2010-09-13T03:49:00.000-07:00

in my previous update I was still ranting about how i am going to die because I forgot to cancel my hotel booking and everything. it has only been a few weeks since then but everything is different now because INTERNSHIP HAS ENDED!

INTERNSHIP ENDED! GONE! PERISHED! DISAPPEARED! NO MORE INTERNSHIP!

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA i have waited for this since six month ago so I am pretty happy, at least I think I should be. but in actual fact I no longer feel much anymore. I had expected to go all like "yay I am so happy i could fly!" but I was more like "okay no more work, that's nice." most of my friends feel that same way so I suppose I am pretty normal.

there are some things I would be more than happy to bid farewell to. I am not going to over-analyse here, shall just list a few off the top of my head. firstly, I am definitely not going to miss the morning rush hour I get caught in everyday. I hate them with passion. being shoved around and getting squashed against people who either smell suspiciously like they just ate onions or they poured the contents of the entire perfume bottle over their heads is not exactly my idea of a perfect morning.

apart from that, there is also the torture of having to wake up for work every morning. each one feels like an internal battle within me, with the evil side tempting me to succumb to my body’s cries for more sleep, while the sensible side of me tries to pull my wary body out of bed. i am glad i no longer have to go through this whole process again.

on the other hand, there are some things I know I will miss. like the food! and the lunch hour alone for me to think and relax. I like having that hour of alone time. :) also, i think i might miss the occasional fun quotation or the satisfaction of finally closing a difficult deal.

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I just came back from bangkok! it was quite a spontaneous decision to go and it turned out pretty fun.

1) the tom yam was mad awesome! i think i can easily drown ten bowls by myself? okay maybe eight bowls. fine, i think three bowls is my limit. but really, it was good. :)

2) shopping there is much better than in singapore, much cheaper and also more variety. but personally i dun feel that it is THAT good, I did not even manage to buy more than 8kg of things.

3) I wish singapore cabs can work like those in bangkok. the cabs there are in abundance, everything you go there is one! they are really cheap too, especially if we get the driver to run the meter. when we were there we went everywhere by cab so it was convenient and safe.

4) many other things I planned to share but currently feeling too lazy to type them out. wanted to upload pictures from the trip too but my memory card failed. i think i lost all the pictures! oh well. haha you guys can always ask me directly if you wish to know more about my trip! :)

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I lost a friend on 30 August. he was strong and he deserved to live. fate, however, has other plans for him so we went to another place. a better place. In any case, I wish him well and hope his family is coping well too.

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UPCOMING PLANS FOR THE HOLIDAY (damn short, only one month left!)

1) clean my room, which includes my wardrobe. I can I will I must!
2) bali trip with my friends
3) malaysia trip with family (again)
4) bake cupcakes
5) meet friends i want to meet
6) spend quiet afternoons at the library, read!
7) finish up my unfinished dramas and start new ones.
8) kbox + buffet + picnic + swim + blade + sleep for 24 hours straight

that's all for now! the list looks pretty uninspiring but well, my life is not very exciting. it does not need to be, I am happy anyway. :) I will add on to this list if I come up with something else.

for now, i shall go sleep. need to wake up for movie + shopping tomorrow!

2010-08-24T17:59:00.000-07:00

I managed to survive this whole hotel tragedy! the hotel is extremely fabulous and I love them forever. *ruffles their hair affectionately* hahahaha yay yay they have decided to waive the charge and thus we need not pay a single dollar, cent, coin, penny! this is a load of my mind, so happy that I can stop fretting over this.

I doubt this is due to good karma lah. because I dun deserve it. hohoho beneath the nice exterior i am actually a big bad wolf.

so for this, I want to thank my lucky stars, friends who cared, friends who laughed at me, my red underwater (no i am not serious, dun own any), my sister and all the deities/fairies/angels/harry potter who worked their powers.

I know i am being a drama-queen, im sorry! hahaha but i am just so happy. i dun need to fork out the 360 bucks or let the company bear the cost and be filled with guilt and remorse for the rest of my life, letting this affect my development. hahahahaha.

okayyy i know i know i shall stop. :P

work is ending in 5, 4, 3, 2, 1!

2010-08-21T22:45:00.000-07:00

this morning i sent an email in the office.

to summerview hotel: please cancel the below booking of 3 twin rooms and revert the confirmation. apologise for any inconvenience caused.

a few minutes later i got a reply from them.

to viting: cancellation noted with ONE NIGHT LATE CANCELLATION CHARGE for cancellation less than three days prior to arrival. please advise the payment.

OH MAN WHY IS MY LIFE SO TRAGIC!

P.S. I know I have been complaining since this morning. pity my friends, especially clarence and rye. but whyyyyy!? last two weeks already why can't I finish this internship smoothly?!

P.S.S. the hotel told me they would try to sell the rooms. if they can be sold by monday the hotel will try to waive the charge. but how much can i trust them?! i dun want to get my hopes up, that's the sure way to be even more depressed than i would be if i dun bear much hope. afterall, summerview is definitely not obliged to help me. and this is the cruel each-man-for-himself business world.

WHY IS MY LIFE SUCH A TRAGEDY!?!

oh well. forget it i shall cross my fingers and the hotel waives the charge. anyway today is only saturday. i shall start worrying tomorrow night.

2010-08-14T22:41:00.000-07:00

"sometimes people are afraid to care too much,
for fear that the other person does not care at all"

2010-08-06T17:02:00.000-07:00

last sunday we celebrated lyana's birthday. it was a simple affair but we were contented, and I think she would not have chosen to have it any other way.

Initial plan was to have a picnic at Botanical Gardens. I had to lie that we were heading to a "awesome place for breakfast, good and cheap! my treat!" but in the end our dear sky decided to burst into tears (what the hell how did I come up with such a sentence) and we had to cancel our plans. we decided to shift the surprise to ion coffee bean instead! :D it involves me lying as well, (my friends make me sin so much! hahaha no lah it was a white lie okay!) I had to act like I am meeting some online seller to get my item. anyhow, I was amusing myself asking lyana how come the rest cannot make it while she went on listing out how they "have some family event" and "her relatives are coming over". in short, she was completely oblivious. :D amazing how they manage to keep her in the dark despite numerous meetings the past week. thankfully I did not meet her, if not I think I would accidentally spill some information. oh well, I know I have it in my blood to say the wrong thing sometimes, reference to the few incidents below.

Incident 1:
Angie's birthday. I sent a sms to yanping asking her about the location for the surprise. needless to say, I sent it to angie instead of yanping. great, just great.

Incident 2:
Rachel's birthday. I was supposed to be overseas and cannot celebrate it with her, while the rest were either busy or has work or school etc. but two days before the surprise, I called and told her to return my book on saturday since I would be meeting her. saturday was supposed to be the surprise, I was supposed to be in Malaysia visiting grandma.

Incident 3:
World Dad's Day! we wrapped up his present and kept it in a secret hiding place (my drawer). then I called him to ask him to return my library books for me, since I knew he was going. "my books are in the drawer, remember to return both hor." my drawer = the same drawer with his present. his present = present with "happy fathers's day!" my dad is not blind, and unfortunately quite smart too. FML.

hahaha but I am much more careful now, on many occasions I hold back words that are at the tip of my tongue. I think I consider my words more nowadays, instead of just blurting them out. which is...a good thing?

anyway the whole chunk above is out of point so yeah. back to lyana's birthday!! :D

we walked into coffee bean with huda and gaya holding this banner, which is actually mahjong paper, and says happy birthday biatch. hahaha but being as slow as she is, I swear we were already like 2 metres in front of them and lyana was still searching for my online seller. then finallyyyy she made out the figures of her two friends and realisation dawned.

admit it, we were awesome right? :D especially the two since they planned it, while yours truly just took part.

and honestly, I dun know why I am so proud of this. it was just a small surprise, nothing fancy, but I guess none of my surprises succeeded before this. pathetic but true. thinking back, most consist of the main lead acting surprised like "oh wow I never expected this you guys are sooo sweeetttt." yup.

we lazed around at coffee bean for awhile and we read the list huda brought. it was this list we put together before olevels entitled "things to do after olevels". but obviously, like all to-do lists, we accomplished not more than half. some of them are damn stupid though. hahahaha makes me laugh thinking about it.

anyway, eventually it got too cold so we decided to leave.

then from coffee bean, we wanted to head to fika. it was closed though! so finally we ended up at coffee nations. there, we enjoyed the good food and good company for the afternoon.

gaya and subeer had to head home after that so we all went. at the mrt station we had an impromptu decision to head to amk for koi bubble tea! :D I love love love the bubble tea so much. i know everyone thinks it is over-rated and will be yet another passing fad, the whole bubble tea bubble will eventually burst (haha). maybe? I am not sure whether koi will still be popular a few years down the road but whatever it is, I think I will remain a loyal fan. in fact, i would rather less people drink it, then at least the queues would not be so horrible everytime.

so anyway I convinced the two to try it too. their verdict? good, especially the bubbles, but not worth queue-ing for. but i beg to differ!! I think good things are worth waiting for, especially bubble tea and more so their hazelnut bubble milk tea. one sip and all your efforts will be worth it. :D okaayyy i make it sound like some elixer hahaha fine i am going to stop raving about koi.

that's all! haha an hour till work ends, did this post in the office. (again) I cannot wait for Monday, National Day! finally no Monday blues. love public holidays, hate it that they are so rare.

finally, me and birthday girl! I have tons but obviously too lazy to upload all. they are up on facebook though. but these three, i took off huda's blog, cos she added the nice border and everything and i am also too lazy to log into facebook.

cheers to great friendship and public holidays! <3

2010-07-27T17:21:00.000-07:00

The internet in my office is constantly screwed up. does not help that we are not just handicapped without the internet, we are crippled. absolutely nothing can be done except stone and daydream or in my case, blog. :D

I shall do a list of things I find annoying. yesyes nothing better to do i know. hahaha which is sadly true so yeah.

1) the starbucks guy that cannot understand any human language other than "tall", "grande" and "venti". when they act all high and mightly and thinking that acknowledging "small", "medium" and "large" degrades their standard or something. hate it when I ask for small, then they look like I am speaking in that secret language tribes used to deliver coded messages. lame like mas selamat!

2) know-it-alls. I am sorry you know every single thing in this entire universe. please please forgive me for my stupidity and ignorance until you enlightened me. i know you are the best so yeah, kindly shut up thanks.

3) people who wear so much perfume that they become the perfume, the bottle of walking perfume. how nice.

4) when people send forwarded emails without deleting the ten million eight thousand and forty-two accumulated ">". so I have to scroll all the wayyyyy down only to find some stupid message about me being cursed and will die in ten minutes if I dun forward the email.

5) having my privacy invaded. i really hate hate hate hate this. even if the person means no harm or whatever, i hate it when people touch my things or look at what i am typing on the computer when i am typing it or tries to squeeze personal information out of me etc etc. and no, it is not because i have any deep dark secrets or anything, i just dun like it.

6) the rain. especially in the morning when i have to go to work, or when im heading out.

7) alarm clocks. hahaha poor alarm clocks, i dun mean to dislike you but why must you ring so damn early every morning?!

alright i have loads more hahahaha but i dun want to sound like such a petty little freak, you know, those that declare "I hate the world!". yup so I shall stop! anyway 7 is my lucky number so I figured it would be a good number to end. :D

anyway the internet is fixed now, so i shall post this up. :D :D speaking of internet, i am forced to add one last point to my list.

8) lousy internet connections.

pfftt spoils my perfect 7. hahaha alright my list ends here!

hooray work is ending in 40 minutes.

and i am blogging so often now! :D :D

2010-07-26T17:40:00.000-07:00

Right now, I would kill for a steaming bowl of maggie curry plus one egg with the egg york still watery and nicely mixed with the soup. okay partly because I am hungry and also because the office is like 2 degrees?!? even though raimi kindly allowed me to borrow his extra jacket, I am still damn cold. I want my maggie! rawr now now now! ):

I shall have that for breakfast tomorrow morning since I cannot have it tonight, it's thai food at thai express tonight!

and my left palm is like bruised from playing arcade games yesterday. hahaha the fault of the bishi bashi machine. but it was so damn fun! too bad I was freaking lousy at it, my hand-eye-brain coordination is like zero. whyyyyy?!? love the machine though, challengers anyone? :P

last night I stretched my shirt over my knees and was having so much fun until my shirt ripped. mum nagged at me for an hour for being stupid FML.

hohoho alright no more random stuffs, work is ending in 20 minutes! I shall post up this entry, go to the restroom, drink a glass of water, reply one last email and taa-daa, end of work!

time passed really fast today yay. :D

one month and two weeks more till end of internship. i.can.hardly.wait. looking forward to being able to laze in bed blissfully until noon again, though I just MIGHT miss this place A LITTLE. hmmm.

2010-07-24T12:40:00.000-07:00

when I was little I used to come up stupid rules for myself. totally pointless and retarded, yet makes me happy and keeps me entertained. perfect for when my mum meets yet another of her oh-hiii-so-how-is-your-daughter's-studies-coming-along or hellooo-did-you-go-to-the-metro sale friends.

1) step only on the white tiles when I walk across a pavement. if I accidently step on the black or step on the lines, start over!

2) try to draw a circle in the air with my right hand and a triangle with my left. i never really did succeed, and sis told me it was physically impossible, but I kept at it. dun know what viting the junior was thinking then. =.=

3) see whether I can hold my breath successfully for one minute.

4) have a competition with my sister to see who can walk the slowest. then hold another to see who can drink a cup of soya milk the slowest.

5) buy a chocolate bar and nibble at it. first eating up the chocolate outside, then eat the nuts inside one by one, then crush the wafer and chew it into a mouthful of mushy paste in my mouth.

and the list goes on... :D

Do you have anything like that?

I think as we grow older, we tend to slowly forget how easy it was to be satisfied like that. how a random and silly game or how an ice cream cone can make our day. we set more and more rules, placing high expectations on ourselves. but in fact, we often do not understand the point in binding all that chains to our life. agreeing to help your friend run an errand, agreeing to submit the proposal to your boss in 2 hours, insisting that the party goes exactly according to plan, let a rude waiter ruin your day, will not be happy unless your husband brings you to the most exquisite restaurant etc etc.

In a nutshell, we overlook the importance of simplicity and doing nothing except being happy. we forget how much fun being silly can be. all we care about is being driven, productive and having everything in your life to purrrfecct. like a cat. meowww

Dun get me wrong, I am not saying that it is bad. but sometimes we should loosen up, laugh, be crazy and spontaneous, do everything for the sake for yourself only and heck care anyone else! not easy, i am still learning. you?

food for thought.

anyway, this is yet another post done during office hours, while waiting for the agents to reply to my quotes and for new emails to clear. haha kills boredom and helps me to keep my blog alive as well, if not I will never find a chance to blog. weekends I either laze around or go out. weekdays I work and work until all I bring myself to do after work is be a couch potato, which in turn is turning me round like a potato but does that stop me from being a couch potato? no I continue to be one, all the while stuffing my face with potato chips. hahahaha all the potatoes in the world unite! peel potatos peel peel potatoes!

speaking of work, I skipped work yesterday. i was sick! ): my tummy ached like abcdefgzxzxzxz. i was actually on my way to work already, but i felt this feeling of nausea so bad that I got off at orchard, ran to the toilet and puke. yikes I hate puking, the feeling is terrible. but anyway afterwards I got a splitting headache. yup so i called my boss and told her that I am going home to sleep. went home and puked a second round. hohoho then slept blissfully until late afternoon. finally dragged myself up to take MC and i lamely got ripped off by the clinic. haha so that basically sums up my uneventful and stupid friday.

yay exactly 20 minutes till end of work. shopping + movie(maybe) later! happy happy. :D :D I love weekends!

2010-07-10T12:34:00.000-07:00

I am typing this post in the office. yes I work on a Saturday = my life is tragic and pathetic I know! hahaha but at least it is just half a day! and most Saturdays I dun get much email so I just waste my half a day browsing random sites, printing out lyrics of my favourite songs to memorise, read yahoo news, stare into space etc. all these while attempting to act busy. (so that boss does not throw a bunch of new quotations at me. I am getting better and better and looking busy hohoho.) like now, I am typing this post on microsoft word so it seems like I am completing proposals. will just copy and paste this whole chuck to upload to blogger later. wheee!

Actually I want to post about this morning. I left home happy but by the time I reached the office I was downright pissed off and ready to pull out the eyelashes of anyone who dares to bother me. After spending the morning sulking I feel much happier though.

Why? because I simply cannot stand it when people smoke in the morning. I honestly do not mind if you wish to smoke and ruin your health and I understand that it is hard to quit. Personally I have friends who smoke and I am okay with it, as long as they dun smoke in front of me in the morning. afternoon no problem evening no problem just dun smoke in the morning damn it. I just want to enjoy the short walk to the mrt station and refresh my mind! Is that too much to ask for?!? I know I am strange but I absolutely hate it when I am enjoying the precious, not to mention so rare it is almost raw(haha), moments in the morning with fresh air and warm sunshine and all of a sudden, I am engulfed by deadly smoke. Then I will walk faster so that I dun have to take in all the smoke but the smoker will look at me weirdly and walk even faster. Then I will walk EVEN faster and he will somehow think that “wow this is a competition” and walk EVEN FASTER. in the end I will end up jogging like some retard. yeah today was one of those days, I met not one no two but three such people. *bursts into flames of anger*

I would also like to take this chance to add that our earth is really suffering. the air is no longer as fresh as before (I can feel it!) and more trees are being cut down everyday to make way for new buildings and to make paper etc. not to mention half the population now owes a car, we burn things everyday, and people smoke in the morning. ( LOL sorry I cannot get over it) which means the air will continuously more polluted. thus please save the earth! It is really very sad.

I am not perfect and I do waste paper. Moreover, I have this bad habit of tearing my Styrofoam cups/boxes to pieces before throwing them away. I heard that this releases some harmful chemicals into the air or something. But! I am trying to curb such bad habits and trying to be more environmentally friendly. so if you are reading this, I urge you to save the earth too. start doing your part, you can start with small actions…like not selecting the option for having the receipt whenever you use the atm machine etc etc. (I always try not to take a receipt, saves a lot of paper in the long run!)

I am not trying to be some environmentalist or be some goody-two-shoes. I just hate to see our earth slowly dying and natural disasters being more frequent. Dun want humans to perish just.like.that.

Then on the train there was this woman who kept pushing me and falling on me. no I usually dun mind as I completely understand that it is an accident but the problem was, everytime she pushed me she would glare at me as though I pushed her. puh-lease! the situation was innocent me minding my own business at the corner of the train when she comes along and keeps pushing me and stepping on my foot. The first time I even apologised! out of politeness la, I am nice like that. (haha roll your eyes, I know I know.) but subsequently I got pissed and shifted to another little corner but dun know how she managed to come up behind me and start pushing me again. Then she was all like muttering under her breath about me stepping on her and not apologising and about how youngsters are damn rude nowadays. see! so lame I am going to eat lamp chops for lunch. zzz

Okay this is a looonnng and angsty post but dun blame me, who is the one having to work on a Saturday?! not you, so dun judge. hahaha okay la work is okay but I badly wanted to sleep in ley. ):

nevermind, shopping later! (: (:

P.S. WAHLAU I AM DAMN LONG-WINDED AND NAGGY. HOW ON EARTH DID I COME UP WITH SUCH A LONG COMPLAINT POST?!

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA (okay stop =.=)

2010-07-02T23:41:00.000-07:00

scary how time flies right?! barely seem like I did anything at all but in actual fact, half a year has just flashed past us. looking back at my new year resolutions make me want to laugh because everything seems like a joke. I accomplished nothing. but nope, I have no regrets! it was a happy half a year nonetheless. (: and when I look pass everything else, being contented and happy is whats truly important to me.

I have done up a new list of resolutions for the next half a year. this list, however, is secret haha unlike the one I made in the beginning of the year. if you want to know, ask me personally. yuppp but really, it's nothing interesting, the usual stuffs everyone resolves to do.

anyway! for the past three days, I have been a facilitator for this amazing race thingy at little india conducted for primary 4 students of zhonghua primary. I have such an awesome time and I know I will miss all the kids so much. haha but life goes on, back to replying endless emails in my office from tomorrow onwards. boooo thumbs down thumbs down! ): rawr I really miss all the kids. haha although I spent merely a few hours with all the groups and although some of them were really cheeky. but they.were.so.cute. hahaha okay okay I know I said this countless times but still!

they always call me "teacher! teacher!" and "viting sisterrr" and "jiejie jiejie" ohmygoshhh I cannot lose my temper at them if I tried. this race proves that I can too, be patient and calm, yay so proud of myself. (: and they do ask/say the funniest things sometimes.

after this, I told a few of my friends that being a primary teacher could be my calling. hahaha but all their reactions were similar, that are-you-kidding-me face completed with raised eyebrows. oh well I mean why not?! yuppp although I know being with them for three days is different from actually teaching them for years but this time something tells me that this is worth considering.

hmmm I shall give this some serious thought. and damn, I really miss them.

2010-06-20T00:26:00.000-07:00

Socially Awkward Situation #1:
You’re in class and you want to cough. Some other guy just coughed, now you have to wait.

Socially Awkward Situation #2:
Someone calls in your direction. You raise your hand to wave. It turns out they weren’t calling you. You casually fake a head-scratch. It’s too late; everyone saw.

Socially Awkward Situation #3:
You sit down on a chair and it makes a fart-like noise. You attempt to make the noise several more times so that everyone knows you didn’t really fart.

Socially Awkward Situation #4:
You hold the door open for one person. Now you have to hold it for everyone behind them; if you let go, they’ll think you’re selfish and un-mannered.

Socially Awkward Situation #5:
Talk to your date while eating. Accidentally spit a tiny bit of food onto them.

Socially Awkward Situation #6:
“Excuse me, do you stock ________?”
But they don’t work there.

Socially Awkward Situation #7:
He goes in for a high-five. You go in for props.

Socially Awkward Situation #8:
Walk into the washroom and the stalls are full; pretend you only came here to wash your hands then leave.

Socially Awkward Situation #9:
You check your phone because you have nothing to say to the conversation.

Socially Awkward Situation #10:
Someone comes online; you say “hey”, they go offline.

Socially Awkward Situation #11:
The person in front is walking slightly slower than you are. You walk at an uncomfortable speed to get past them.

Socially Awkward Situation #12:
Someone you vaguely know is walking in front of you. You maintain distance.

Socially Awkward Situation #13:
You say “hi” to someone. It comes out as a whisper.

Socially Awkward Situation #14:
You fart and sneeze at the same time.

-took this off tumblr-

HAHAHAHAHAHA THIS IS FUNNY.
go ahead, laugh! weekends are here, time to slackkk yay. though it's just one day but im trying to be grateful regardless. :D

sigh if only we can adopt a 3-day work week life would be perfect. *wistful*

2010-06-18T00:15:00.000-07:00

MY SISTER IS BACK FROM CHINA YO!

hahaha although i no longer have the room all to myself, but I would choose my sister over my own room anytime. :D it's no fun being alone in it anyway, nobody to chat with till late and throw pillows at lol. but mostly she does all the childish acts while the genius(me) sits demurely at one corner reading philosophical books. yeah right hahahaha kidding! (fine I know my sense of humor fail whatever!)

i must mention, she bought me this la pi xiao xin keychain and a few weeks ago when my brother came back from China he also brought back a la pi xiao xin keychain for me! haha their great minds think alike. :D and I love la pi xiao xin, he is so damn cute. I should go download some more of the cartoon and transfer it to my phone to watch on the way to work. but only problem, the cartoon is really hell funny and I dun want to be giggling like a lunatic on the train everytime. sighhh

yup evidently im happy today. :D

and it suddenly hit me that internship is going to end in 2 months, really soon! how time flies haha I think I may actually miss that place when it ends, just a teeny bit though!

anyway too early to think about it still. I shall continue to persevere and work hard for a few more weeks. alright that's all for now, got to go sleeepppp and recharge for tomorrow, need to be alert. will be back to blog more the next time I have some free time. till then!

2010-06-14T22:36:00.000-07:00

hi hi hello i am here to update yay this is an update! after ten million years! :D

today the three of us were bored to death in the office, especially clarence and me and especially especially me! haha partly because of the low season and partly because today is philippines's independence day. i was so bored that i googled "things to do when you are bored". yes it's pathetic i know! in one of the sites the author suggested learning the lyrics to a song, so i did! that kept my occupied for an hour, not bad not bad. :D i learnt "xiang ni jiu xie xin" by lang hua xiong di. next time anyone wants to sing that with me can!

anyway I am officially done with AUTUMN CONCERTO and it.is.such.an.awesome.show. the kid in the show, xiaole, is so freaking cute. everytime I look at him i want to squeal and squeeze his chubby cheeks awww and he is the sweetest thing ever! :D and admittedly vanness is quite handsome in the show. haha I never really liked him but this drama completely changed my impression of him. he is actually quite charming heehee. (why do always find every male lead charming?!)

in the show there is also his guy called hua tuo ye. i feel very sad for him really. he liked muchen for six years?!? even though muchen always let him down and go back to guangxi in the end, he still quietly watch over her and xiaole. but i figure this kinda unconditional love no longer exist. face it, everyone is realistic and people are selfish. still, his role is so heartbreaking! i hope to see him act in other dramas soon, i think he acts quite well. when he cries he makes me want to cry haha.

anyway the above two paragraphs are for fellow autumn concerto fans! :D :D hahaha but if you guys dun know what im crapping about, ignore! :D

now i am sooo sad because the show has come to an end. no more smiling like an idiot in front of the computer screen or going gaga over xiaole. sighhh what show should i start next?!

suggestions suggestions!!

wheee haha that's all for now! :D a random update! till next time, soon! rawr i cannot form a perfect sentence today! goodnight world!

2010-06-07T00:45:00.000-07:00

hahahahaha yes new beginning for the this awesome blog of mine.

it is going to be revived! i am not going to neglect it(so much) anymore!

:D :D i even changed the blogskin, love it alot alot now, was getting sick of the old one. also removed the tagboard because dun find much purpose in having one, you guys can call/email me if there is anything. haha alrighty off to bed now! do watch this space for I will be blogging quite often!(hopefully, no promises though! okay i am so not convincing hahahaha) :D

goodnight!

2010-05-14T20:02:00.000-07:00

yesterday I felt kinda queasy in the morning and I had a slight headache. but being deluded that I was some warrior and I am always strong, I figured I could go to work as usual. then on the train on the way to work, it got worse and worse but I felt too lame to turn back and the closer I got to my workplace the lamer I felt it would be if I were to turn back. basically to cut the story short, by mid morning at my office I had gone to the toilet and attempted to puke 4 times and actually puked once. finally decided to take a cab home and rest.

then the most drama thing happened. I FREAKING PUKED ON THE BLOODY CAB. okay before you guys freak out, I puked on the cab but I had a plastic bag so I didn't puke all over the cab. anyway the whole time I was on the cab, I was trying my best not to puke and making weird noises which made the driver very worried(for his car not for me). haha he kept stealing nervous glances at me and finally decided to hand me a plastic bag. LOL "nah in case you vomit, vomit here because this is my company's car not my car. sorry eh thank you eh." HAHAHA actually he was quite cute la, being so worried about his car and everything. and it was also quite embarrassing, making his whole car smell like puke.

well anyway I finally got home and crashed. slept all the way until evening, then dad brought me to the doctor. IT COST FREAKING 48 BUCKS FOR ONE STUPID MC AND TWO TYPES OF LAME MEDICINE. hahaha I can like buy two shirts or shoes or a bag! although dad paid for it but still! sigh being sick is such a waste of money.

I am much better now, even managed to get up and blog! :D haha I have been sleeping perpetually the whole of yesterday and today and the feeling is sooo good. It is so blissful to not have to worry about being late for work or quoting something wrongly for once. :D but I hate to think about all the stupid emails and hotel bookings and quotations I have lost track of these two days, hate to think of how I am going to deal with all of them when I go back to the office tomorrow. rawrrr life is such a ironic and idiotic beast sometimes.

whatever it is, I want to thank dad and mum for being extra nice to me these two days. haha and even jeffrey, who normally wouldn't lift a finger for me, listened to all my orders and helped me pour water/on the fan /get the remote etc etc. :D :D and all the friends who wished me well. actually I am not that sick la, just fever and headache, normal normal sickness. and I am much much better already!

die now I am addicted to taking MC I am addicted to slacking!
how to drag myself to work tomorrow?!

P.S. I finally updated this space! so many times I wanted to update but did not carry the decision through. had quite alot of feelings and thoughts and happenings to share but after so long I no longer have the urge to blog about them. hahaha would be less lazy and blog once the feeling hits! :D

2010-04-27T23:21:00.000-07:00

HAHAHA LIKE WHAT THE HELL RIGHT?!?

love how this makes me smile like an idiot. :D

2010-04-23T00:26:00.000-07:00

been blogging less regularly, obviously because I am always kept busy with work. when I finally get home after a long day, I have just about enough determination and strength to flop on the couch until bedtime and then drag myself to the bedroom and flop on my bed. :D

although everyday is work and more work, I managed to find small things about work to be happy about everyday. like recently, I actually find replying the numerous emails cool and completing the quotations challenging and interesting. through planning out the itinerary for the schools, I discover more about peranakan cultures, little india, chinatown, world war 2, balestier etc etc. today, I even went to SCGS to discuss the itinerary I planned with a bunch of teachers. hahaha they did not bother to mask their surprise when they saw me and were like, "wow didnt expect you to be so small." however, they did not treat me any differently , so it was just like those business deals I always see in dramas. wayyy cool, heehee I felt very professional. hopefully there would be more of such opportunities, I dun want to be confined to the small office I want to go out! meet people! close deals! explore! learn!

next week it would be raimi and clar's turn, they managed to close deals as well so should go meeting the in charge to discuss. I think we are all getting on track, especially raimi haha he is really different from how he normally is in school. because now he sits quietly and research/type itineraries/make phone calls the whole day. well but yes, he will occasionally burst into some annoying song.

now work aside, I managed to meet some friends this week. I forgot on which random day, I met up with a bunch a completely random people and we just sat at newyork x2 and talked about completely random things. haha jiahao, xinru, kiawoon, lisa and zhiwei = really super random. but we had fun and it was so heartwarming catching up with everyone. :D

also, wenjie and jenny and I finally managed to have dinner together! :D thanks for the endless laughter and sound advice.

alrighty so life is a fluffy cloud of cotton candy(yes I am hungry) for me now. may it stay this way and never rain.

cheers!

2010-04-14T23:22:00.000-07:00

I love cupcakes and I love rainbows. I want that rainbow cupcake!
I love rides and I love colours! I want to sit on that colourful ride and spinnn!

P.S. I need to do something exciting asap!

2010-04-12T01:26:00.000-07:00

today I learnt two things: never to make decisions when I am angry and not to promise anything when I am happy. reason is simple, when I am all exasperated i tend to over-react. I feel like the whole world, no the freaking universe, is against me and I am like this sad character in a drama show who will never experience happiness and justice ever again in my next nine lives presuming I become a cat. (x and when I am happy I feel like I am super lucky and getting more than my fair share of good luck. heehee and then I feel like I am capable of anything and it's during such times that I tend to happily make empty promises. cannot blame me! at those times I really feel like I would fulfil it and only when realisation dawn on me that I become bewildered at how the hell I am going to carry them through.

wow whew I am done with my chuck of pretty much nonsensical thoughts. (:

yay yet another week since internship started and ended. tomorrow will be a brand new day! (:(: I admit that in the beginning I was really overwhelmed. for the first week I genuinely felt like my life would be terrible forever and I was stuck in a rut that I could do nothing about. but now I just want to be happy and positive! at least I know that at tour connections I would never really be bored, with the endless stream of tasks to complete. about 5 more months + 1 week, I am do it manxzxz!

and I know I really should blog about Vietnam as promised. I really want to! but my heart is not determined enough to send the right signals to my fingers and convince them to type the post out. (: heehee so maybe next time!

hohoho and thanks to all the friends who took them off to meet me this week. (: I want to meet lyana though! haha I know im working everyday but i think dinner on one of those random weekday nights should be fine. (:

things to do next week(or I should say this week cos it's past midnight) include:
- bake another chocolate cake(I baked one with sis today and it's so damn good!)
- watch monga, ethan's starring in it oh man oh man!
- watch the mediacorp star awards. I am actually quite excited about it. yes I know I very no life yada yada blah blahhh
- finish my secret masterpiece of a birthday card
- complete my blue logbook, I have been putting it off for too long!

that's all for now! which is a lot, because work is taking up virtually all my spare time so I hope I can complete the above list, among other things.

okay that's all for now! (: gone with the wind! hohoho what a lame way to end.

okay viting just shut up already.

cheers! off!

2010-04-03T08:25:00.000-07:00

you know when you're in a car and you glance out of the window and it seems as though you are flying pass everything?"

"yeah"

"that's what i feel like, everyday. except im those trees; that highway marker; the street lamps. i am standing still and life is rushing past me, 50 miles an hour in the wrong direction."

"then close your eyes"

I took this off the internet and though some parts are adapted, the general meaning stays true and I remember feeling the same way more than once, definitely not the only one too. :D

I know I have been neglecting my blog but life has really been hell busy, with work and personal time and friends and family time. but I suppose i am kinda getting used to the stressful work we have to do everyday, not like im making less mistakes though. haha but I am happier than when I first started internship and that's good! and boss is undoubtedly much nicer to us recently, mdm ong even bought us all chocolate! they are timtams, my favourite thing in the world. :D speaking of which, please tell me you guys know what timtams are because my friends shocked me when they all appeared clueless while I gushed about the heavenly chocolate taste of timtam biscuits. I mean, you guys can't not have eaten it, it's practically a crime hahaha.

anyway this is just a short update, will be back for more soon! off to catch up on my tv time hohoho goodbye! (: stay happy everyone!

2010-03-28T23:18:00.000-07:00

STUPID CARDBOARD CREATURE I HATE YOU!

THIS WEEK WILL BE A BETTER WEEK I JUST KNOW IT! IT HAS TO! (: VITING YOU CAN SO DO THIS!